Ada no Nikki (Under Construction)

Lol Summer's almost up...

2010-06-04T18:47:00.007+08:00

And I have not updated my blog at all. How sad. My last post, I think, was an apology post for not posting as much. Blergh. I don't post that much at all. Summer's been pretty boring so I really haven't been able to put everything up.

I have a whole lot of footage that's just sitting here in my hard drive waiting to be edited, but I've just lost my motivation to do so. Excuses, excuses, excuses.

The summary of my summer was basically Clearance, Graduation, More Clearance, Sleep, Beach, Mall, Dentist, Enrollment, DOST crap and more sleep to be blunt. I also did a bit of spring cleaning along the way.

I got pretty into makeup, nails and hairstyling this summer. It's almost become a hobby at this point. I talked my mom into getting myself my own flat iron because hers is just crappy >_> I don't use my flat iron for straightening because my hair's already pretty straight. I just like curling my hair once in awhile :P

Oh and did I mention? I got my new iPhone 3Gs for my grad present. I know. I'm late D: I'm sorry. but yeah. I named her serendipity :)

So to pass the little time that's left before torture resumes and I go off to college, I did my nails. Got the stuff from a little kiosk in Trinoma. The nailpolish there is really cheapo and cute :D My first go at doing nailart on myself. My left hand looks gorge and my right hand looks like it exploded. Ohwell. You win some, you lose some :P Practice makes perfect right?

I've also been doing some EOTDs out of boredom. I haven't been able to get my hands on the Moi Palettes that I wanted so I got myself a cheap Ever Bilena Palette to satisfy my craving for colorful eyeshadow. To add to my eye gallery I uploaded my EOTDs on a facebook album. lol. Yes, I am vain. Hey, it's a hobby. Don't judge.

I bought all of my stuff with my own money. Save my makeup brushes which my dad gave me :D

Blah. Pretty weird blogpost. I know. If nothing interesting happens in college, I might just turn this blog into a beauty blog lol.

Lol, apparently I lied

2010-03-12T18:41:00.001+08:00

I lied that I'd be updating regularly. I feel so horrible ;_; I have a lot of footage to post for vlogs but I haven't been editing or cutting any of the footage so it's a no-go on the vlog aspect as well.

Sorry for breaking my promises ;_;

On the bright side, my fanfiction is still pretty active :D I just put up chappie six and I'm really happy with what I've written so far.

Clearance is almost done :D yays me!

And besides the fact that this post is really crappy, I've gotten back to my rune factory addiction once more :D I know, it's not healthy, but it's addicting *_* and fun.

I've only been replaying for two days (that's less than 8 hours if you count playing time) and I'm already halfway through summer :D I feel so proud.

I'll update when more substantial stuff happens to me :P Oh, and I found a really awesome dress :)) I feel bad because it suited the Las Vegas theme of our prom better than it'll suit our grad ball. I feel like I should've switched. My gradball dress should've been the dress I wore to prom and my prom dress should've been the dress I'd wear for gradball :P

Ohwell, I guess you'll see during prom ;) And omg, my dress matches my camera. And my laptop. lolzers.

My vocabulary has died and I'm writing in chopped-up sentences. I think it's time for me to go :P

Tim Burton killed my childhood.

2010-03-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

Okay so my family and I just got back from watching Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland and I have to say I am utterly disappointed.

Props to all the actors and actresses and might I say Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, Anne Hathaway, Mia Wasikowska, Crispin Glover and Alan Rickman were all incredible. But the way the story went sorta made it seem like Tim Burton and his writers were all drunk while watching Narnia when they came up with this.

They focused WAYYYYYY too much on the mad hatter and the implied romance between Alice and the Hatter sorta freaked me out a bit.

What really sorta irked me was how I was expecting a fantasmical retelling of an age-old tale which we have all come to love. There was Disney's first animated film, and there was the Hallmark Alice in Wonderland which left me breathless as a child, and Tim Burton just sorta kinda had to ruin it for me.

I have to admit that it was a good re-imagining of the tale. I just felt like it lost all the oomph that it had. And by the end of the film, I was left thinking: "Okay, where did all the good stuff go?"

The child within me is dead now D:

The only remedy is Toy Story 3 in June. Hopefully that won't be as much of a disappointment as well. (LOL, btw, Rob Patt has a new movie coming up as well. It looks sappy and gross, like his icky stuble)

I'm gonna go drown myself in the 1999 Alice in Wonderland now. I suggest you all join me.

Johnny Rockets, Sterling Knight, Banana Mush and WTH PISAY???

2010-03-07T23:06:00.013+08:00

Today's a sunday! It's also the deadline of my last graded requirement, which means I am officially stress-free! (Aside from clearance which is just meh)

I woke up this morning to a few pleasant surprises. As some of you might know, I've revived the fanfiction writer within me. Yes, I know fanfiction is a bastardized version of fiction. Half the writing is done for you because all your characters already have their profiles and backgrounds. But hey, that's a good thing when you don't really have any time to conceptualize characters of your own.

I'm not saying that I lack the capability to do so, I'm just saying that like with every endeavor in my life, I was bit too lazy to try and build some of my own characters up, so I'm settling for writing fanfiction for some already existing characters. It's fun actually. I was a huge fanfiction buff back when I was in grade school, where I'd write fanfiction about Cardcaptor or Daa!Daa!Daa or random crap about classmates. (I'm sure some of you are familiar with my JoexAlvin fanfiction concept which is nowhere near as gross as the JaoaqxJoe one Marz wrote. So don't judge me)

The point is that I've been really getting into fanfiction lately, and when I woke up this morning, I was greeted with five new reviews on my account for one of my stories. Actually, scratch that, my only story. It's nice to know people enjoy my writing. Which is more than I can say for this blog. People hardly even comment here anymore (MY CBOX IS LONELY PEOPLE ;_;) Another surprise was the fact that Sterling Knight actually twitted :-> Which makes me feel sorta special for no apparent reason. Anything Sterling Knight makes my day a better one :D

For lunch today, we ate at Johnny Rockets over at Eastwood. I had thought to start vlogging today but I forgot to bring my camera ;_; It's the second time my family and I have eaten there in a month's time and it's seriously starting to take its toll. I feel fat already :( Seriously, it should be illegal to eat there more than once a month. 1) They're food is amazing. 2) It's also amazingly unhealthy. But I'm not really complaining.

I got a new blouse from Cushe that I am totally in love with It's pink with a blue undertrimming. Usually I don't wear pink, but it was just too cute to pass up.

When I got home I went straight to working on my Econ Project advertisement, which turned out better than I had thought it would. Our product is Banana Mush Facial Wash. My groupmates had come up with it because of some retreat activity they did that involved bananas in your face. Sadly, I know nothing of their escapades because like the good little girl I am, I didn't go to retreat.

Either way, our project turned out pretty well. I think our market strategy was very well planned out. Too bad we won't really be able to execute it seeing as it's the end of the year and all. But you can still go listen to our ad (voiced and produced by my) on the side of this post.

On a side note, Adrian Begonia just sent me a very disturbing link. WTF did they do to Pisay yo!?!?!

This is ridiculous. I mean, it was understandable when viscom did it to the volleyball court. It was an isolated area. It was also fine when 2009 did it to the astb, at least it was somewhat artistic and pleasing to the eye.

But THIS? This just looks like those sad MMDA paintings that fail at trying to make drab hollow block walls look nice. I mean, I'd understand if Sir asked TALENTED people to paint pisay. The viscom paintings weren't half bad because they were actually quite aesthetically appealing... but leaving the entire greater oval it to AMATEURS??? This is SAD D:

My faith in humanity has just decreased exponentially (See what I did there? Humanity = humanities = Art? LOLOL)

I hear they painted the flagpole area as well. Hell just froze over.

I know I've been the one saying that we should give the lower years a chance and that we should be patient and blahblahblahblahblah, but this just cuts it. I'm planning on bringing my bro's Subaru and all its drifting glory to burn the tires out on the pavement and try as best I can to erase the sad excuse for street art.

Or not. I haven't actually seen it up close. For all I know, some art may actually be decent. But that does not excuse the fact that AS A WHOLE, it looks RIDICULOUS.

I pity the incoming first years and their drivers/moms/dads when they come to pick them up. Not only will they have to avoid volleyballs, careless street walkers and random bits of trash on the road, but now they'll also have an eyesore of a road to dive on. Srsly, that road is gonna cause an accident some day.

It's ALIVE!

2010-03-06T23:15:00.006+08:00

Okay, so I finally fixed the little IE glitch, but I've been hearing that people on lower resolutions have been experiencing a few problems with my site. Darn it. I guess you really can't please everybody. If you're having problems viewing the layout please feel free to comment, email or leave me a tag with a screenshot of it so I can get right to fixing the problem.

That aside, it almost feels as if I'm free. I have an audio advertisement and a print ad to get to for our Economics Business Plan, some clearance crap and then graduation and I am officially a high school graduate. Everything feels so surreal. It feels like just yesterday that I was struggling in Filipino class for my lack of Tagalog Language skills. That was amazingly sad actually.

And here I am, finishing up my last few weeks of high school, still speaking English as my primary medium, but at hey, at least I can converse naturally in Tagalog now, right? Don't judge me

Throughout my four years of life in Pisay, I've had my computer crash thrice. Twice of the three requiring me to buy a new unit entirely, meaning over my four years of pisay, despite having gathered enough pictures to equivalent a goldmine, I've lost them all. When my computer crashed two months ago, I lost pictures from second year to fourth year. I lost all my project and sadly, even our second year History Book Project.

So for the past few days I've been scouring the net for pictures I might have uploaded onto my numerous net accounts, photobucket, my old livejournals, anything. Heck, I've even been sifting through my email as far back as early 2006. That's how desperate I was.

I hit jackpot when I opened my photobucket this morning. I was sifting through my old photobucket account and found more than a few embarrassing first year pictures. Particularly ones of the fair, but that's beside the point. Do you guys remember this?

I know, it seems like so long ago, and gosh everybody looks so young. I mean look at Estelle and Kat! They look like effing toddlers! And dude, those computers in the Tech-Prep room? They are ANCIENT. LOL. Whatever did happen to the Tech-Prep room? Was that Tech-Prep room the new CS Lab with the awesome WD2 PCs? Or was it the the new Humanities Faculty? It was such a long time ago I can't even remember >_> How sad.

It's hard to believe my time here in Pisay is almost over. We never really grasp the value of just being able to walk the halls of the SHB, or just being able to hang out at the Caf, or at the front lob or at the Gaz.

It's wayyyyy too early for me to get senti over everything, but I can't help it. It feels just like the last day of ISYF at Singapore, but I know this is going to be a million times more heart-wrenching.

It's odd. I never felt this way when I left ICA. Don't ask me why. I don't miss the ICA campus, despite it being my alma matter for like, eight years. I spent half the amount of time here in Pisay and yet it feels a hundred times more like home.

I'm going to miss the snarky teachers, the bad facilities and the stinky boys' bathrooms. Heck, I even miss the teachers that aren't even here anymore. Can you say Ma'am Beltran? Yeah, I actually miss her now.

WTF is wrong with you Ada???? Get a hold of yourself. Rarrr.

But yeah, I'm feeling the sentimentality quite early (as I always do). Again, don't judge me.

One door closes and another opens up soon after.

I'm going to Bohol this Tuesday so I might be missing afternoon Clearance. I might still be going to school in the morning though. I guess the adventure starts here. :)

I might start vlogging over the summer. It seems like a fun thing to do, though the audience here in the Phil isn't the largest out there. When it comes to things like these, I seriously wish I lived in the US. In the US, vlogs actually get views and awesome people like whatadayderek and shanedawson and lisanova aren't weirdos. In all honesty, I find them awesome. It may just be the shallow humor talking, but they are some of the coolest people alive right now.

Speaking of the pros of living in the US, Sonny with a Chance Season 2 is out in the US March 14. Not sure how long it'll take for the episode to make its way onto youtube or torrent for downloading, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's soon after. Reruns of SWAC on Disney-Asia are killing me.

That's it for this post. I'm prattling on and on and this post is going nowhere. Hopefully I'll have more substantial things to blog about tomorrow.

Ciao for now~

BTW! It was Sterling Sandmann Knight's (Chad Dylan Cooper from SWAC) birthday yesterday. And he's sick on his haburday. That sorta sucks, so I'm hoping a haburday from me will make a difference. Yeah right, Ada. Lol, this obsession is so going to drive me to hell someday.

March 5 - Bonding

2010-03-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

So I haven't really made the blog public yet because it still has quirks on IE which I'm hoping to fix by tomorrow. I seriously don't see what's wrong with the code o_o It worked perfectly fine on IE before I uploaded it onto blogger. hmmmm

Either way, I'm still going to blog about today because despite the fact it was a clearance day, it was exponentially more fun than the days past.

It started as usual, having teachers sign our clearance forms. Then a little bit after we ran into VisCom doing their clearance street paintings and decided to help Pate out a little.

We helped out with that ;P I helped so much that my uniform skirt is now rendered unusable. It has black, white and green splotches all over it, but it's all good.

After a good hour or two of painting we had to take this stupid health periodic test because we failed to submit our health video early. You can see the video here. I say it's pretty good for a crammed video. Sir had the nerve to say it was only two minutes long. WTH sir? That is no way to encourage your students. GTFO.

Either way, all was well when we helped out Damian's group with their Economics Product Advertisement a little. Felipe and the other boys let out fangirl-ish screams that resonated throughout the entire campus. Too bad I didn't get any footage of that :( You'll have to settle for this instead

There's only our Economics project due Monday and Tuesday left for clearance, and then I'm semi-free until graduation.

YOU CAN DO THIS ADA. I BELIEVE IN YOU.

High School's Almost Over

2010-03-04T22:52:00.004+08:00

Lol, it's been such a long time since I've posted. My intervals between posts seem to border a month to two months. Tsk tsk tsk, that's not very good netiquette Ada.

One of my new year's resolutions was to be an active netizen right after all the hullabaloo of High School was over. Right now is clearance week and there are little to no requirements I can think of that can hinder me from committing to my resolution. So, just a quick survey: Are any of you actually keeping your resolutions? I'm pretty sure half the people I know have thrown their resolutions out the window. Shame on you >:P

Either way, I'm back with a new layout. IT's basically just PNG table overlayed onto a basic writing frame but the kinks with this layout is that it doesn't allow you to click on the divs UNDER it. So if you want to click any of the links on top, you're gonna have to click [TAB] multiple times. I'm counting on the fact that you won't really bother with the navigation on top though :P Overall, the blog still takes a pretty long time to load, but I think it's very aesthetically pleasing. YOU GUYS STILL NEED TO HAVE JAVA ENABLED TO VIEW THE SITE PROPERLY. but as far as I've checked, it works well in IE, Firefox and Google Chrome ;D

Since school's practically over, I've been working on a few personal projects. I've revived my love for fanfiction and writing - so if you can finde me on fanfiction you can pretty much see what I've been up to the past few weeks.

The recent projects in relation to video submissions have also sparked my love for film making so I'm contemplating starting a Vlog. We'll see if that'll be too much work in the future, but for now I shall concentrate on trying to post regularly.

So what's been up the past few months? The only really exciting thing I can think of is my trip to Singapore for the International Science Youth Forum 2010. It was a pretty good experience, and trying to lay it all out in a blogpost is a little bit... meh. Not to mention it's way too late to make a post for that.

I hope my dedicated readers will come back to me after my long hiatus. It's been such a long time and I miss you all. I wonder if you people even remember this blog. I doubt you do :P But don't fret. I shall be updating this blog regularly with my escapades, adventures and trivial endeavors.

Don't get too tired of me, k?

OH BTW, I'm thinking of starting a twitter ;D I've been such a closet twitter stalker for such a long time and I thought that maybe I'd get a twitter of my own. I know, it's pointless and people rarely even give a damn about what I'm doing, but it seems fun :P It'll help with my regularity-discipline issues :P Not to mention Sterling Knight's twitter makes me lol.

Sigh, I miss blogging and talking about random, insubstantial stuff like this. I'm hoping now that I'm in college, I'll have more me-time.

Well, that's it for now. Ciao~

EDIT: Apparently, blogger messed up my layout on IE. It was fine when I was testing it on html D: So as of now, the site is still UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

Worries

2009-12-22T22:44:00.001+08:00

Okay so I have to accomplish the following this vacation (which won't be much of a vacation).

I'm dedicating tomorrow to comsci (which is already a day late)
I'm starting with my Singapore Book Circle presentation next week.
I'm doing my life science portfolio next week as well.
I have to get my flight booking done.
I have to study for a math post quarter and Bio periodic test.

I need help. and Hugs. I hate this vacation :(

Bittersweet

2009-12-18T11:42:00.002+08:00

Life is oftentimes bittersweet. My life and this past week are a prime example.

The good news:
I got a new laptop! And I was able to have my old desktop PC fixed.

The bad news:
In order to have my old desktop fixed, I had to have all my old files deleted. Yes, files that had lasted me since my first year of high school.

The good news:
The guy fixing my computer was able to back-up some files

The bad news:
He only backed up useless files that I don't use. He prioritized my downloads folder which has nothing substantial in it. In the process, I lost all my music, all my first-fourth year pictures (yes, goodbye memories) and all my notes, submissions, etc etc. I have to start comsci from scratch now. I feel ripped off.

More bad news:
Since yesterday, I have sustained a moderate fever of 39 degrees, horrible cough and I can't get out of bed.

Good news:
I was able to take my econ, fil and chem periodic tests.

Bad news:
I wasn't able to deliver my Econ presentation.

Good news:
I missed my math and bio periodic exam.

Bad news:
I missed my math and bio periodic exam.

Good news:
I got to rest.

Bad news:
I missed paskorus and a batch congress. And I wasn't able to watch Benjo's performance, or see him dressed up in black D:

Good news:
It's vacation yay!

Bad news:
I won't be able to see my friends until January. And since I missed giving Jasmine's present today, I can only give it to her in January. I'm going to miss everybody :(

Life sucks.

It's the thought that counts

2009-12-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

This week has been epic hell for me. I woke up this morning to a horrible cough and a low-grade fever. Unfortunately for me, a low-grade fever is nothing compared to the hell I'll go through if I miss a periodic test.

I think this fever is a manifestation of the roller coaster of a ride my week has been so far.

Ugalino, our class genius and personally, one of my best friends, came back from Azerbaijan. Needless to say, his absence was caused a whole lot of alkdfjhakjhga that I'd rather not expound on. And his return has brought me unexpected glee.

I was also able to make one my best friends happy, albeit not as happy as I think he feels he is. (That didn't make any sense :P)

This week is blah and this post doesn't make sense.

I'm using this post as an excuse to bask in the wonderful greatness of the wonder that is my new laptop, lovingly bought for me in a dire time of need. My desktop had gone belly-up on me, if you must know.

At this point, I am blogging, not because I have free time, but because I have given up. I have given up, not because it is hopeless, but because I lack the capacity to study or even focus right now. I lack the capacity to focus right now, not because of distractions, although those might partially be the cause, but rather because of this raging fever that renders me coughing every ten seconds.

The dust and cold air doesn't help my condition either. I doubt, then, that another swig of Bernardo Carpio or Tandang Basyong Makunat will help me at all. If anything, it'll most likely aggravate my condition.

So I am leaving my tomorrow morning free to cram and my Econ and Chem periodic test to chance. Not to mention a pending Econ long test and a presentation which will be the deciding factor in my DL-ing-ness.

Don't worry, this post isn't supposed to be coherent. I shall blame it on my affliction. *coughcough*

Despite that all, as I have mentioned early on in my post, I have a lot to be thankful for. I have wonderful friends who love me and whom I treasure so dearly that I would rather get sick for than to leave them bored :P Let's hope my continued relations with them don't spread my disease :P It'll be like Korea and AH1N1. How fun.

The end of the week is two days away. By then I will have taken seven tests, given one presentation, submitted a comsci final project, a doomed math project and a lifesci storyboard. By the end of the month, I will have completed my Singapore Book Circle Preparations and booked my flight and by January I will have done all in my capacity to help my groups, both in STR and my elective.

I say this in a manner of WILL and not SHOULD HAVE to strengthen my conviction. So as I read back on this entry, my guilty soul will leave me helpless against the prying eyes of the past me who wrote this. Yes, I'm talking to you, future self. Go do your homework instead of wasting time typing senseless things like this for the minuscule reason that the keypad feels soft and nice under your tired feeble fingers.

I have said enough, and the tone of this entry is somewhat odd in its formality. I blame Les Miserables and Victor Hugo. Curse his literary prowess.

I shall bid you all goodbye and shoot my future self a look of contempt. Don't forget to do your homework >:(

Downward Spiral

2009-12-09T20:40:00.001+08:00

I have a feeling

that the days leading down to my birthday

will be a countdown

to something that might have to end.

Looking at things now, it's nothing but a downward spiral.

Self Sabotage

2009-12-08T19:25:00.002+08:00

People always say I'm a sadist, when in fact I am quite the opposite.

In the end only a few people really know how much of a figurative self-mutilator I am, and the ironic part about it is that those same people are the primary causes of my masochistic self-sabotage.

Day after day I set myself up only to get hurt once again. And when blows to relationships are concerned, although I know I don't have to, I always take the bullet.

It hurts when somebody tells you to stay away for the sake of saving a relationship, which ironically doesn't even involve you. And it hurts even more when the only way to stay away from that person you can think of is to isolate yourself and in a sense, hate that person.

I want people to stay happy so much, that I sacrifice my own happiness, and still I get the short end of the stick. I'm left with more self-loathing than I started off with, and I have nobody to console me about it to boot.

It's sad, because although I know there are other ways of going about it, the only way that seems to satisfy the problem of relationship preservation is severing one or the other.

I hate this.

Best friends don't do that. And although I'm deemed one of great stature, in the end, I'm just a bunch of refuse.

Thanks for throwing me away.

2009-12-07T20:42:00.004+08:00

Hey there. It's been a long while since I've posted. I haven't actually been gone for a long while. For a few weeks after my last readable post, I continued to write blogposts, but never published them. I didn't feel the need to publish them.

And as the time passed, I stopped writing all together.

I guess I haven't been writing because for a certain time in my life, for the first time in my life, I didn't feel the need to. My life felt complete and satisfying. Had there been any downfalls within the day, there was always something to put it all back into perspective. Once, in my life, I was perfectly content just living life, not to document it, but to feel and experience it.

I guess the fact that I'm writing again is an indication that things aren't like that anymore. Over the past few weeks, I didn't feel the need to vent any strong suicidal feelings of any sort. If I had anything to vent, it was shallow. And you know something is shallow when I vent about it in the open.

Now, starting today specifically, things aren't so bearable.

Now, I feel, for the first time in my life, that there truly is nobody to vent to anymore. No suitable placebo for the certain insecurity I've been cultivating, but ignoring this whole time. For the first time in my life, I feel truly alone.

It didn't used to feel this way.

I had this small, tiny, minuscule semblance of stability. That no matter how crappy of sh*tty a day felt, I always had people to fall back on. And for once, I had felt needed. I had felt that I meant something to somebody and that somebody had meant something to me.

And now circumstances have arranged themselves in a way that fosters the complete opposite. The worst thing is, that it's all my fault.

Little actions I had thought would help me maintain my little bubble of security had actually started corroding it. And now, with the last catalyst leading to a flurry of reactions, in a blink of a second, I'm left with nothing.

It really is my fault for fostering something that cannot be benefited from. It made me feel like a better person. Like I had something to live for despite all the crap in my life. I guess I tried to make a purpose for myself, even though I know that I was an easy substitute and that I didn't really constitute much of a utility anyway.

Now the repercussions are enormous and I'm left with a huge gaping hole in my chest that I'm sure won't be going anywhere anytime soon.

Ohwell. Maybe it'll pass.

Maybe some miracle will allow me to feel complete and human again. To actually feel like a good person.

Because right now all signs are pointing to hell, for a sacrifice I really shouldn't have given.

My Gradeschool Self scares me o_o

2009-09-26T02:11:00.009+08:00

I think some time last year, I wrote a post issuing a war on poetry. And here I am posting two consecutive posts featuring just that.

I've had my email address for about seven or eight years now? Amazing, huh? No wonder it seems so juvenile. Along with the typical down sides to having such an old email address (cramped inbox, lots of spam and reeeeaaaally sad name) there are also some good sides.

Looking through my inbox and the record of ALL my sent messages makes me nostalgic. I reached a point in my inbox wherein the only emails I got were from my School Newspaper Editor, Lana. (We're still amazingly close until now, due to the bond of our oober fangirlingness of all that is Johnny's Entertainment)

So most of the emails consisted of my poetry submissions, article submissions, revisions, edits and random stuff. We're separated by 5 years, she being the senior, but we related well. Whether it was because my mind was mature or she had her childhood spirit still instilled inside of her is beyond me.

The good thing about old emails is that with the messages, you also get a lot of old attached files. See, in 2nd Year High School, my laptop, along with all my files, articles and poems died. So I really had no backups for them

But after having scanned my email, I was delighted to see that I could re-download all my attached files. Needless to say, not all my literary masterpieces could be salvaged from this crude blast of nostalgia, but some of them could and were.

I'm reading a few of them now, and I must say, I was a very scary child o_o

One of the few poems I wrote, approximately when I was in 4th Grade was this.

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Fake smiles adorn my face
As I float down the halls
Filled with false memories and regrets
But my heart is heavy as the bells ring…

I try to hide the tears with laughter
Laughter of things that have nothing
No meaning, no sense
I try to drown myself in false hope

What did you do to me?
Is this what I deserve?
I hide under my covers out of the light
Trying to hide from the sorrows and remorse

Feeling escapes me
In a desolate state of numbness
The secluded corner of my heart
Still crushed from your words…

Those haughty words of discontent…
The battle in my heart which you brought about
Still not won by either side
Filled with joys fabricated from my need

The disarray of my soul
Still fails to be sorted
In the uproar of memories of supposed happiness
And memories meant to be forgotten.

I try to piece together what I had
The veiled secrets that I tried
So hard… so very hard to conceal
The adamant longing to live

The vague picture of happiness
Does it exist?
All seems shattered
And my soul left in a flaccid state

I try not to look… I try not to fear
The inconsequential conditions that haunt me
Why does it feel this way?
The foul and malevolent memories plague me…

My state of being seems shrouded
In what seems to be a gaunt tear in reality
Should I search for something…
Something to placate this feeling…?

No… I’d rather keep it this way
In my dormant state of nothingness
In the equanimity of my soul
Silence…

I felt that way…
Now with nothing to foster true hope
Now, then and soon to come
Upon the scolding heat of rebuke…

You sever any glint of bliss
I feel I must go away
Escape the noxious fumes of your arrogance
What am I to become?

Crushed…?
Shattered…?
Lost…?
Or just hidden…?

Note the excessive [mis]use of ellipsis, characteristic of my pre-Sir-Joey-educated self.

I was a SCARY SCARY SCARY youth. Right now I'm seriously wondering where all this angst came from, and where it all went. I mean, I used to be so --- poetic. Where did all that go o_o

What scares me most is that this poem, written roughly five or six years ago, is eerily similar to how I've been feeling the past few months.

Premonition much?

Either way, I was a troubled child, but an artistic one. I'm guessing all my literary prowess in poetry has since then been transmuted into that of journalism. Who knows when the alchemy happened, it just did.

I truthfully hope though, that one day, my talent will come back to me D: I never really did remember why I stopped writing poems, or why I started disliking them so much.

Probably a trip back to my old post on poetry would do the trick.

Either way, nostalgia ensues. Amazing, isn't it?

This can't be healthy Ada

2009-09-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

Lol, I woke up from another crying dream today. I have no idea why I was crying :)) All I know is that in this dream I liked somebody and that somebody kept trying to pair me up with somebody else and it annoyed me, and when I woke up I was in tears :)) Such a weird dream. (P.S. I'm using 'somebody' because I REALLY have NO IDEA who the person in my dream was, not because I'm masking someone's identity)

Immediately after I had the immense need to rekindle my fangirl self.

My first search was of course, Arashi.

They're doing well, as usual.

I didn't bother with HSJ because I hear the fandom's quite dead right now. Amma wait for it to rekindle.

After I went on to NEWS and then shortly after my Korean Fix.

And then I noticed something adorable.

Kibum + Donghae = Kazunari Ninomiya @_@

Or maybe Kibum + Kazunari Ninomiya = Donghae

Either wayyyyyy, they all look like each other :P

So addition to my vast library of Johnny's Pictures, which, if you read my LJ, you'll know the hierarchy of, I have a new folder dedicated to Donghae and a subfolder dedicated to KiHae.

Heechul has also made it into my library.

So congratulations to my new fandom inductees.

Gah I am so bored D:

Digging up buried memories

2009-09-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

I just had a very blah conversation awhile ago. It made me remember things. It also made me want to dig up some buried memories.

Just like this poem.

LOVE

I love your smile, it makes my day.
A burning feeling deep in my heart
Passionately listening to your stories,
Deeply taking note of anything you say,
For every moment with you is like heaven.
I love you when you’re sad
Gaining the chance to comfort you;
When you’re happy,
Because it makes me happy too.
I love you when troubles are ahead.
I will be your most trusted shield
Defending you from life’s dilemmas
I will be your everlasting shadow
Guiding your every move
And like the wind,
I will whisper to you softly
Reminding you that you are never alone.
The heart shows when it cannot hold the love within itself anymore.
And when I look into your eyes,
This is exactly what happens.
Even if it was just a glimpse,
I knew that you were the one for me.
Don’t ever think I never looked at you,
But the fear of rejection took over;
I would rather look at you for a thousand years and be unnoticed
Than talk to you and be cast off.
I do wish you are crying,
For with tears you show me that you are touched,
And nothing else could satisfy this urge to go on.

I doubt the person who wrote this for me even remembers that he wrote it. And if he does, he probably regrets it. Especially now that I've put it up for the entire world to see :P

This poem wasn't actually written as is. It was a series of little encouraging messages that the person sent me when I was sad. In one of our later conversations he sent me a word file with all of them compiled to form this beautiful but rather incoherent poem.

I'd say that it's the thought that counts, but in this case there mustn't have been much thought put into it in the first place.

Idunno.

It's sad how you can be so close to a person one day and so far away the next. This poem dates back to circa 2006-2007 if I'm not mistaken. :P I haven't talked to the guy since.

Metaphors

2009-09-12T19:47:00.004+08:00

Life is full of metaphors. When you see them, you're put into such a state of discernment, it's almost overwhelming.

Personally, mine is full of metaphors. Some I've discovered through time and some that just pop out of nowhere during strained conversation.

One day, during summer vacation, I had found a tiny cellphone battery. Well, later on however, I'll discover that it didn't just pop out of nowhere. It was right in its box, where it was supposed to be, ever since I signed up for this new phone.

So I had been carrying, essentially, a phone with an empty battery cartridge.

That day, the battery came to me with a magic-like warranty. In my sleep that warranty screamed in my head that it would last a lifetime. Or at least for the lifetime that the phone would come to reach. So realizing I had nothing to lose, I put it in my phone.

It was a perfect fit.

For a month it sat in my phone. My phone never came to life.

The battery was useless without a charger.

When school enrollment came, I had hopes or buying that new charger. But just as uncertain buyers go, I limited myself to canvasing the possibilities, window-shopping for that charger. I missed the chance to buy it, and for two more weeks, my phone went uncharged.

One fateful day, I had chanced upon a charger sale. I seized the chance and bought it.

The next few days were an awkward adjustment period. I was enjoying my new found utility. And for fear of ever losing it, kept it perpetually attached to its charger. I never wanted to run out of battery. This battery, out of all the batteries I had come upon had been the best - the most long lasting. It brought me some of the most meaningful experiences in my life, not to mention 3 new contacts on speed-dial.

As you can probably guess... it was too good to be true.

Four months in and the battery fried. There were days when it'd come loose. Sometimes, it would cause my phone to hang. And times when I needed it the most, it would run out. After much denial and failed attempts at fixing it, it gave way.

I dug for the warranty buried deep in piles of trash and found it, only to discover it was void. I did have something to lose.

Now that my too-good-to-be-true cellphone experience seems to be coming to an end...

Do I remove my battery and dispose of the charger?

I can always try to keep my phone connected to the power supply and leave it on charge mode permanently. But that causes stress on the battery, as most electronic appliance users should know. It damages the battery even more, and hurts your phone as well.

The battery is dead, and the temptation of charging it might just drag my phone down with it.

What do I do now...?

Standards and Inferiority Complex

2009-09-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

I thought this post would be pretty good when I thought about it. I mean I HAD to make my comeback into blogging memorable right?
But now that I'm actually here on my computer writing it, I have no idea what to say.

Earlier this morning I had all this pent-up stress and self-doubt. Not to mention the big discouragement that is basically the equivalent of the complete lack of ceteris parabus which constantly plagues my standards and ideals - ~~the firebreathing dragon that is that evil hag who strikes such feelings of inferiority and uncertainty into the hearts of those unprepared~~

But seriously, WTF. Everybody would scoff at me and say that my hatred for all things related to that dragon were irrational. Well I think they're pretty warranted now.

I don't know about you, but teachers that back up their ideals by negative reinforcement and throwing demoralizing insults and threats just lose my respect completely. I mean, it's happened with almost every teacher I've known. Heck, even I do it sometimes. But what kind of teacher uses it as the base foundation of her teaching? I know that teacher has some favorites and on occasions because of the intensity of her favoritism the negative foundation of her teaching seems to be cancelled out, but how is it that I'm the only one who notices from the get-go, not having to have the situation get to that point when you just want to strangle someone.

Blah, I'm not even making sense anymore. I just reread that paragraph and it's like mental throw-up. Excuse me for that.

Basically, all I want to say is that a teacher that makes her student/s feel THAT worthless about him/themself/ves, regardless of the general morale of a class, will never earn my respect. It may not make sense to anybody (actually, I'm pretty sure it won't), but yeah, I'm venting. Humor me.

Which brings me to another point of analysis.

WHAT THE EFF IS WRONG WITH ME????

Why do I feel bad when others don't? Or feel a hundred times worse when they do? Why do I set my standards so high that it makes it impossible to just be happy and why, after continuously being reassured of my worth and value do I feel like a little worm on the pavement?

Maybe it was how I was raised. When your every movement is subject to critique, some point in time you're bound to crack. Think of my life up to this point as a bunch of comminuted fractures which haven't been treated. By the end of it all I'm just broken equipment.

I don't know. It's like people try to fix me when they assure me that I'm okay, that I'm fine. But they're just using staples and adhesive tape and glue and it really doesn't help?

Sigh, I don't know.

Which leads me back to how I'm in such a fragile state right now. And Iliad just isn't helping.

Sigh, owell. Better just take some happy pills and deal with it.

That was a sucky comeback...

Boggle

2009-08-18T23:42:00.006+08:00

Lol so now that ACET applications are over I feel like sharing my essay a bit :P Nobody's read it yet and I feel so deprived of praise :)) I'm Kidding. I just need something to post :P please do excuse any grammatical errors since I am just copying off my ROUGH DRAFT since my softcopy seems to be missing :P.

Boggle
Being asked to define myself by my missions, goals, achievements and philosophies has been a recurring dilemma lately. I could never really find the words to express myself. Everything that would come into my head would be too abstract to put into coherent thought. Because of this, some would view my vague and uncertain answers worrying. I, however, find them reassuring.

Ever since I could remember I could never really consider myself a focused person. I had trouble focusing, not in the sense that I lacked commitment in my endeavors, but in the sense that my interests were always too broad and spread out that I could never really concentrate on just one.

When I was four, my mother enrolled me in extracurricular activities such as computer, ballet and piano lessons. By that age, I had already realized that I was different. I had been the only one my class to enroll in all three willingly.

Certainly, this was a burden on my four-year-old self. In fact, if I started to excel in one facet of my lessons, I would slip on another. Hell would break loose as my mother scolded me. My lessons were the root of fits on more than one occasion. Needless to say, despite all the abrasive episodes, I enjoyed all three lessons, but when asked to name my favorite I would be stumped.

A few years later, I would find that I didn’t want to just know how to operate a computer or dance. I wanted to learn more. When my brother entered Philippine Science High School, I just started my second year of pre-elementary. Already, from piano, my interests deviated to the odd figures in my brother’s old Biology books.

At the age of seven I was immersed in the inner workings of the ecosystem and human body, as well as the Bible. In fact, if asked to correlate the two, I would respond enthusiastically, taking pride in my reasoning prowess. This could be attributed to the nature of my religion. I love being a Jehovah’s Witness, and contrary to popular belief, being a JW does not mean I am a radical or an anti-science activist. I am assured by the logic that my faith allowed me to espouse where other religions would have left me to lean on blind faith.

When I started displaying an affinity for the humanities and sciences, my mom suggested that I too aim to get into the prestigious Philippine Science High School. I all too happily agreed.

In between that fateful day and my entrance into PSHS, my interests had jumped from music and dance to art and literature, the English language to Japanese Culture and from basic Computer Technology to all-out web design and graphics design. I had competed in more than five occasions in figure skating competitions and participated as the first of our school’s delegates to a mathematics competition. I had learned basic Japanese, Chinese and mastered my mother tongue.

Then there was Pisay.

Most people would list passing the PSHS entrance exam as an achievement with only one wide path leading to success. I viewed it as a fork in the road.

Initially I had aimed to get through PSHS with my sanity intact. As my first year passed, I had my sanity, but I lost my sense of direction. Before Pisay, I had been the top of my class at everything, but when you’re in a pool of students as gifted as those in Philippine Science High School, you tend to learn a valuable lesson in humility. I was no longer the best; I was one of the best. I had no where to go from there. When I entered PSHS, my psyche slowly changed. My goals rearranged themselves in front of me like I was editing movie reel. Once again, my interests rattled then fell into place like the letters in a Boggle box. As the years passed, I realized that as good as I was in Math and Science, I was far better suited in a school which paid more mind to the arts.
Rather than sulk about the irony of my decision, I decided to make the most of it. We’ve all heard of Scientists. We’ve all heard of Mathematicians. Artists and Writers are a dime a dozen. In my brain, I wanted to make myself into a hybrid professional. Once again, my broad perspective began to manifest itself. I decided not to excel at one facet of the PSHS curriculum, but to dabble with each and every one.

People say that being multi-talented only merits appreciation and praise after college, when you start work. People who say that haven’t met me. You’d think that because I was such a muddle of interests I would be useless and not very ambitious. You’d be wrong. On more than one occasion, being multi-talented and resourceful has gotten me out of the strangest fixes, whether it’s dealing with a schoolmate who’s a few fries short of a Happy-Meal or whether its being a friend or a leader.

By my third year in Pisay, I had gotten the hang of living as an Iskolar ng Bayan. As low grades rain down from the heavens, you start to realize that it’s not the end result that matters, but the journey and how you get there. At this point, we’re all just trying to get there.

As I built up my resolve toward my new goal, I did not neglect my spirituality and dedication to God. On November 18, 2006 I was baptized as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. I could now add Bible Student to my hybrid professional model.

It is at this point that my over-enthusiastic nature backfires.

When people are asked to choose a college, or a course, it’s never easy. Still, they get through it. As much as I’d love to say that having a wide range of interests to choose from would be helpful, it really isn’t. The person I am now isn’t ready to choose just one. After having read the Ateneo Brochure several times, I am now convinced that no matter what course I choose, Ateneo will be able to provide me with an environment conducive to my probing propensity to expand my horizons.

So when people ask me about who I am and how I define myself, my vague answers don’t worry me. They never did. They’re just there so I don’t have to limit myself. They’re just there so I can soar.

Silver Topaz [VERY IMAGE HEAVY]

2009-08-16T16:41:00.013+08:00

Actually, before I left home, I thought I setup my phone for live blogging, but apparently I didn't, so blah. I'm going to go ahead and make this a long blogpost because quite peculiarly, our section doesn't seem to have an ounce of homework due (except for the labrep and bio worksheet thing that I already delegated to my wonderful groupmates Ralph and Mac respectively. Thanks guys!)

So yesterday I woke up at 10, pretty late considering I slept early (11:30) the previous night. Well it was evident since Friday that I wasn't feeling my best. I blame it on Fruitas (again). We left for the salon at 12 where my mom had her nails, hair and makeup done. My dad had a hair trim, mani-pedi and I had my hair treated, my nails redone and my makeup done.

I was there for three hours. Thanks to the people who kept me entertained while I was there, because I was almost literally strapped to the chair. When they did my makeup they applied an UNREAL amount of foundation onto my face, it almost felt like lead.

We got home at about four and I dressed up and left at 4:30 for the venue.

When we arrived there, the tables were set and everything but it was just HOT. The air conditioners weren't even on yet D: Some of the ushers and usherettes assigned from our congregation were there and the photo and videographers were set up.

This is the dining hall we rented out at Shangri-La Restaurant (Very near Bethel, the "headquarters" of Jehovah's Witnesses here in the Philippines.) We had about 150 guests.

As soon as I got there the photographers started taking pictures and I was blinded by the flashes x_X THEY WOULDN'T STOP FOLLOWING ME. So I went down to see if I could wait downstairs instead, but then there was this whole other affair going on there that was less formal than ours so when I went down everyone was oggling me and it was awkward so I had to go back up.

left: the ushers and usherettes; right: the guests being seated

When the guests started arriving the ushers and usherettes started getting to work. The tables were named after the precious jewels mentioned in Revelations 22:18-21. Y'know, the jewels that God's Kingdom is adorned with, Jasper, Beryl, Sardonix, Emerald, Gold, Pearl, chrysophase, amethyst etc etc. So you could tell really early on that my mom and dad's wedding anniversary was going to double as a public discourse on marriage (that's if you're acquainted with the book of Revelation). Actually the whole thing was actually very spiritual. My mom and dad wanted to keep it very close to the congregation. They didn't even invite any of our relatives x_x So yeah, almost everybody there, save the photographers and some Bible Studies, were Jehovah's Witnesses.

And then my mom and dad arrived just in time for their big entrance, which I wasn't able to take a picture of because my brother and I ushered them in with a big bouquet of roses. Don't worry, when the photographers and videographers give us the copy of the pics and vids, I'll try uploading all of them.

So when they settled and got to their seats, Brother Salanggo, the Elder that helped Bible Study my father and pushed him to get baptized gave a discourse on marriage and how it originated from God. Promptly after, the photo-op ensued and all of our guests had the chance to take photos with my mom, dad and the family.

left: Br. and Sr. Pasiliao, two of my parents' guests of honor; right: mom and dad with ushers and usherettes

Then dinner was served and my brother and I started taking vain pictures :))

My brother's trying to hide his pimple :P Which you can actually see on the left

We were on the same table as the Pasiliao Family and the Salanggos.

left: Br. and Sr. Salanggo; right: The Pasiliaos. Ah! Kuya Dan got cut off D:

Just before the program started we went from table to table thanking people and looking for our friends. We saw ate Janjoy, our reaaaaaaaaaaaally close friend (she's been like my sister since my brother started studying at PSHS), and Kuya Gift. It was a HUGE REUNION. You see, Even though Ate Janjoy was like 3 years older than my brother, back then, when you were still allowed to take outsiders to Gradball and Prom, she was my brother's date. They had their Gradball at Shangri-La HOTEL and while waiting for them Kuya Gift and I spent our WHOLE EVENING at Rockwell just playing at the arcade. I love them both to bits.

Left to right: Janjoy, Chris, Me, Gift

When the program started everybody was halfway through their meal. Ate Cha and Kuya Alan were our hosts for the evening (I didn't get any pictures of them T_T) The first act was by Cky Nilo, a little girl from our congregation. She sang one of the Kingdom Songs (songs from the bible) which pertained to the marital arrangement by God. And while she sang, the kids from our congregation (25 of them) marched over to my mom and dad and gave them a rose each. 25 ROSES! It was adorable. (I don't have pictures D:)

Then the next act was by my brother and Ate Precious. They sang ALL I ASK OF YOU from Phantom of the Opera. My brother is a Tenor so he was absolutely AMAZING in this song.

left: Cky Nilo; Right: Precious and Chris

In between we had a little game (because God knows parties are nothing without games). The first game was for kids 12 and below, and it was basically a Bible Quiz. (Our Parties are VERY SPIRITUAL)

The first question, if I'm not mistaken was Who was the prophet that was muted when he did not believe the angel Gabriel's message from God? Your jaws must be hanging right about now because this is a question that was asked to kids ranging from 4 to 12. Yes, they knew the answer: Zachariah. The next question was who was the mother who gave birth to the twins which gave rise to the two nations of Israel? The answer was Rebekkah The last question, if I'm not mistaken was Where did Samson's great strength come from? One pair of kids answered HIS HAIR. And although that might partially be correct, the real answer is GOD. God gave him his power. :P

Yeah, it was really fun.

The next game was for "teens" from 13-20. I joined the game, but forfeited a lot because I already knew the answers; It was mostly about mom and dad and their relationship :)) One of the questions I REALLY wasn't able to participate in because it was HOW DO YOU SPELL THE COUPLE'S DAUGHTER'S NAME?. EVERYBODY LAUGHED. My childhood friend Kaloy got it right :P

Then more presentations. The Kiddies from the congregation performed Hoedown Throwdown by Hannah Montana -_-"" Needless to say, it was cute. Three couples from the congregation performed the Native Ilocano Folkdance SUBLI for my mom and dad. See? Who needs paid performers when you have the Christian Congregation?

left: Kiddies dancing to Hannah Montana; right: Subli

Then the Female Regular Pioneers danced Sweet Escape by Gwen Stefani and the wives of the Elders of the congregation danced a spanish song called Lacumbia(?).

left: Sweet Escape; right: Lacumbia

Then there was more singing. Gem Pasiliao sang From this Moment which was originally Tita Elaine's signature song. I guess she found a successor :P My brother and I sang a duet, Jack Johnson's Better Together but it went terribly wrong. Somewhere in the middle of that, my brother sang Book of Love, more recognizably from Scrubs. But I don't have pictures of that.

left: Gem Pasiliao; right: my brother and I (I look like I'm in pain D:)

Then Ate Precious, Kaloy and Kuya Efren did their balagtasan which is something like a debate, except in poem form. I should really ask them to do my Fil HW for me as they are such AWESOME writers. The poem was about whether it was better to stay single or married in this society. In the end, neither side won.

Then there were more games, but I was nervous for my impending doom so I didn't really pay enough attention.

My brother, our friends and I had a SWING dance number for my parents, and as much as I want to show the pictures and videos, I don't have them. ~~FYNFYN WE MESSED UP A BIT SO SHUSH~~. We're going to have to wait for the professionals to give us a copy so I can put it up here.

Then the hosts started going on about my family's recent vacation to Hawaii and how we spent so much money on it, when we could just have a Luau of our own here. And then OUT came the Regular Pioneers (50 years and above) in Hawaiian getup to perform the hula for us. IT WAS AMAZING actually. They were better than the real thing :P

Our resident Golden Girls performing a Hawaiian dance

Then I performed the closing song, THANK YOU by Dido. Fortunately for me, and unfortunately for you guys, I don't have a video of it. But apparently, I made a lot of people cry :)) (probably from the sound of my voice).

After all the festivities, the Congregation Coordinator, Br. Dan Pasiliao gave my mom and dad a gift from the congregation. A customized trophy for their 25th anniversary and dedication to God. It was such a sweet gesture.

The party finished at about 10:30 and we greeted everybody and had more pictures taken. There was guestbook signing and video dedications, it was soooooooooo crowded :P We were actually planning on going to Starbucks after, but I came down with stomach flu (chinese food kasi) and had to go home early.

All in all, it was really really realllllllly fun. I hope that through this post, you guys can see how different a celebration involving Jehovah's Witnesses is from others. No, we aren't "backward" or "not modern". We listen to R&B, Jazz and HipHop too (actually, I don't know if Hannah Montana counts as any of those -_-"" but still). There is a notable difference. There weren't any risque songs, nor any songs with swearing or profanity. Everything was screened by the elders, and you learn stuff from the bible to boot. Next time we have a party, message me and I'll see if we can invite you! coughGRADUATIONPARTYcough

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD

Pre-Anniversary Jitters.

2009-08-15T16:30:00.003+08:00

It's just a few hours until my utter humiliation.

I'll be performing for my mom and dad's silver wedding anniversary and I have no idea how I'm going to find the capacity to do so because for the past few days I haven't been feeling my pinakanapakabesterestest and I'm dying inside.

Unfortunately for you (and fortunately for me) there won't be live streaming.

I guess you'll just have to wish me luck :P

Be back to see whether I survive or not.

HBB. MAYWCT.

2009-08-09T00:10:00.003+08:00

Lol Cheers to the man of the hour... err, day?

Stumbled upon this TOTALLY by accident after receiving a comment from renofa just a few minutes ago. I went to his profile to reply and started reminiscing on the Mighty Band etc etc whilst browsing his videos.

Coincidentally, I stumbled upon this.

It'll make you smile.

And make the person in question either smile, or just hide in a hole for an eternity :P

Please don't let it damage your ego mmkay? It's your day today :D

Haburdei Benjamin Francis P. Rodriguez Jr.

(Now you can narci-google yourself!)

Yes or No?

2009-08-07T20:49:00.001+08:00

Yes.

Sigh D:

The odds are still against me

2009-08-03T19:37:00.007+08:00

So after having found out I scored in the top 50 of our batch's UPCAT Simulation exam, I felt a brief moment of elation, which quickly dissipated after noticing that everyone else (or most) who got higher scores than I did had MBB as their first choice as well. So much for that.

Today was mediocre.

I really have nothing to write about.

Ohwell.

I'm still suffering from post-Domingo syndrome. I can't believe they're gone ;_; My brother's been playing Jack Johnson in his car in tribute to them and awhile ago, I actually cried.

So to bid them a farewell, I found the song they sang the last night we had together. Justin and Avery's AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME duet cover of a song by AJ Rafael - She Was Mine.

Jesse:
So I hopped on a train,
Three in the afternoon,
I don't know when I'm coming back,
But I hope that its soon,
See I never thought (never thought)
that I'd have to leave your side.

AJ:
Its only physically,
But know that you will be on my mind,
Twenty four hours at a time,
'Cause in my eyes you were mine (you were mine).

Both:
No matter where you go,
I won't be very far,
'Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are,
'Cause love has no distance baby,
Love, love has no distance baby,
No, not when it comes to you and me.

AJ:
See she wrote me a letter,
Said the weather wasn't better,
But she said that she was doing fine,
I wanna see you face to face,
That's what she wrote to me that day,
And I knew that it was all a sign.

Jesse:
So I wrote back with this song,
Promise it won't be too long,
Wanna make up for all our lost time,
'Cause in my eyes you were mine (you were mine).

Both:
No matter where you go,
I won't be very far,
'Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are,
'Cause love has no distance baby,
Love, love has no distance baby,
No, not when it comes to you and me.

Jesse:
So I'm lookin through these boxes.
My life's gone off track.
'Cause its been three years.
She hasn't written back.
But in my eyes.
She's still mine.

AJ:
And I know it sounds so stupid,
To be waiting this long,
But I'm still in love and I know I'm not wrong,
'Cause in my eyes,
She was mine.

Both:
No matter where you go,
I won't be very far,
'Cause in my head I'll be right there where you are,
'Cause love has no distance baby,
Love, love has no distance baby,
No, not when it comes to you and me.

Needless to say, I loved Justin's and Avery's voices a bit more than the original. They were smoother and Iunno, dreamier :)) And it sounds so good on my brother's guitar :))

I miss you guys already D: Can't wait 'til October :D

Stewart and Br. Ramos aren't in the picture D: wah.

Post-UPCAT Blowouts and Hawaii<3

2009-08-03T02:05:00.004+08:00

So UPCAT's over. I seriously OVERSTUDIED. But I'm not even going to talk about that because HELLO, it's over. I'd rather talk about what happened after.

So for anybody who STILL doesn't know, we've been hosting and catering to a number of foreigners for the past few months.

Last month, Armand paid a visit from Hawaii, representing WAIALUA and all their Robotics Glory.

The month before, we had some Fil-Australians come (we took them out EVERYWHERE)and at that time, I had decided that nothing could get any sexier than an Australian accent.

Fast forward to the past few weeks. While we were at the FRC at Hawaii, we met some JWs from another team. Twas awesome really. So we got together after the competition, ate at a local Maxx's (IN HAWAII!) and met their families. They're REALLY, and when I say really, I mean REALLY, musically inclined. The sons of the Domingos, Avery and Justin are WOW at piano (not to mention guitar). They have SO MANY AWARDS, it's scary. Stewart, their cousin is a PRO at the violin. And their voices - heaven.

So yeah, to return their hospitality, we've been letting them stay at our Condo at Eastwood (yay for shopping everyday).

Right after UPCAT, my brother rushed me out of the Eng Building in the rain and we drove straight for Eastwood for my "after party".

We went bowling just in time for disco night with black lights. I was so happy I wore my Six Flags shirt. It was hilarious. The guys borrowed a six pound ball and threw it with HULK SMASH power. The ball practically lofted half the lane before it took out all the pins.

And I realized I am FAIL at billiards. FAIL.

That was a particularly unhealthy day. We had subway for dinner, popcorn and CandyCorner candy in between and at the end some Salt and Vinegar chips. Yay for high blood pressure.

We ended up coming home at about one.

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Right now, as I am typing this, I'm actually drying my hair, as we just got back. Today was awesome. Right after our Congregation Meeting, we went out for lunch at Red Kimono. There was so much Japanese food =_= I couldn't even finish my katsu. My brother drove them back to Eastwood while I took a nap at home, because God knows I need the sleep.

Then we went over to Tita Val's house to practice for our mom's anniversary. We brought the Hawaiians along and the jamming was EPIC. I've never met such talented musicians in my life. When they sing, I just want to bundle them up and embrace them til there's no tomorrow because WOW. Just wow. I'm not even making sense anymore.

We watched Avery's graduation vid (he's a year senior to me), and were floored by how cute he was as a kid (and how his dad looked like Bruce Lee). And they all have ABS :)) Justin's abs are hard as rock. Yay for Hawaiians that bench press :)) They are seriously fit, in the literal and British sense of the word.

I am now at a loss as to which accent I love more, Australian accents or Hawaiian accents.

Wah, I'm going to miss them so much.

I will never forget the shopping day at Greenhills where a gay guy showed us his boob (Stewart's still probably scarred from that. So much for getting over homophobia). Nor will I forget the day in Saisaki when I told Justin he was eating Chicken guts. Or how much we teased Stewart about eating snake, lizards and crickets. Or how spikey Justin's hair is, or how conscious Avery is about being poked :)) Or how epic they are at bowling and billiards and definitely not how AWESOME they are with instruments.

They're leaving our condo for the airport at 1, right before my dad arrives from Cambodia at 3. I'm going to miss them dearly. Sincerely so. I DON'T WANT THEM TO LEAVE. They're like the awesome same-aged brothers I never had.

Hopefully we'll get to go to their grandfather's Golden Anniversary on October. I really really really really wanna see them again.

Please don't forget me D:

This has been the best weekend in my life so far. Thanks for that ;_; <3 Love you guys. Safe Trip. Keep in touch ;_;

Is it okay to come out now?

2009-07-27T13:15:00.003+08:00

So in the end nobody got my 5000th view :)) Ohwell.

I have been hiding in seclusion (yay for redundancy) since then, waiting for the blog hype to die out whilst people busy themselves with studying for the UPCAT.

Now I can post freely what I want to post, and not what people expect to see. The only downfall to this, however, is that my blog is still on that stupid bloglist. Where's the privacy now? D:<

On Texting
I think I've developed a text complex over the years, with the root cause stemming from before PSHS. A few of my really close friends know that I have an inferiority complex, as well as a few anxiety disorders (everybody has them, don't think I'm a freak). So I get a little fidgety when it comes to text messaging. I think it's funny when I recall all the past blunders I've come by with texting.

Like the Cafeteria incident in first year :)) How one guy would take the time to make a call to a person while the other guy didn't even want to waste load on a measly text. Waterworks.

Since then, text messaging has been sort of like heroin. There are extreme highs, and then there's the withdrawal stage. The withdrawal stage, to me, is sort of like rejection. Y'know? But apparently, that's just my mind playing tricks on me. Or is it? :o

Actually, I've seen this little quirk of mine manifesting itself IRL lately. Like at home, when I call my brother, I DEMAND a reply. I, personally, find it annoying when you call somebody down for breakfast, and they don't reply so you don't really know if they're coming down or not. This makes setting the table a problem, so I find it annoying. And due to third year's fiasco where all my texts were replied to with simple YEAH's and HAHAHA's, I've grown to expect a reply, no mater how insubstantial it may be THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT ***. Little did I know that those types of things weren't normal. Lol. I AM SO WEIRD

When somebody doesn't reply, what does it MEAN? :O Has she grown tired of your fangirling? Is she busy? Does she find it bothersome to even think of a reply? Does she not want you to text at all?

I should make that my next poll.

I'm writing this down as a vent, as well as to warn you guys of the dangers of text messaging. Make sure you're on the stage where you can talk to a person IRL before engaging yourself in the 'textmate' status.

~~This whole section is stupid.~~

On the Chaos Theory
Everybody's been busting their butts off studying, making me feel like I'm underpreparing (which I probably am). I have decided to study what I think I need and succumb to my whim. Yes, the Chaos Theory. I love Ryan Reynolds (Deadpool) for that movie. You should go watch it too.

Maybe I should use lists and random index cards too. Maybe then life wouldn't be so complicated.

On the UPCAT and ACET
Why is it that I am swaying toward the ACET? It seems so much more goal-oriented x_X.

I've always expressed my hostility toward people who are so grade-oriented. I've always viewed grades as biased. You can learn more than any other person in a class and still have the lowest grade. It's not fair. ~~And yet, I have exhibited myself to be so academically-oriented all these year. I am such a hypocrite.~~ How is it that UP can base its entire entrance application on a test? I don't understand.

As for the ACET, the forms we have to fill out make me feel horrible and wonderful at the same time. They want to know about you. I've heard time and time again that it's easier to pass the ACET because the ACET isn't there to gauge how stupid you are, but how your interests are spread out. If you get a high score a particular part of the test and a lower one on another, all that means is that you are more inclined to that matter. And that's what the ACET takes into consideration. For some reason that makes me feel better. But at the same time, I have no idea how this is going to help me. For most of my life, I have never excelled in ONE PARTICULAR THING. I've always just been above average at EVERYTHING. And I have NO IDEA how to fill out the forms. I don't have extracurricular activities. I spend time furthering my own interests - web design, art, photoshop. I couldn't care LESS about clubs and associations. I HATE responsibility and LEADERSHIP. What does that make me now?

Whether it's a matter of comfort zones or insecurity, I'm not ready to go take tests or write essays, much less go to college. I just want time to stop. Completely. I want EVERYONE to disappear. ~~I've been eyeying the bottle of Vitamin A beside me for awhile now~~

Because right now, I'm confused. Like I said, I used to hate grade-oriented people. People who'd devote so much time to studying that they'd consider relationships with other people meaningless and keep them to the minimum.

Why is it then that although I am swaying toward Ateneo, I want to pass the UPCAT SO MUCH MORE? Ugh. I hate this.

I wish that college didn't have to make getting a job so much easier. That we could be like students in Japan, not even having to go to high school to make a living.

Maybe then, I wouldn't be so confused.

That's it. I'm capturing Dialga to get my mind off things.

The All-American Rejects

2009-07-14T21:12:00.004+08:00

I don't usually watch music channels. I steer clear from them actually. After MTV bombed and all that I got tired of it all and went into seclusion.

But what a pleasant surprise it is to find MYX in semi-good condition. I turn on the TV and BAM! All-American Rejects Feature.

Apparentlyyyyyyy Gives you Hell was a BEER SONG. I so totally couldn't tell (sarcasm)

I love Tyson Ritter <3

Apparently they got some random girl and her sister (the Pierces) to sing with them for Another Heart Calls. That is hands down my favorite song from their new album. Gives You Hell and Believe come in close second and third respectively. Sunshine shifts from fourth to fifth depending on how my mood is.

Anywayyy back to Tyson. I LOVED his little Manwich metaphor. Cutting the testosterone and laying out a thin layer of estrogen. Mmm, sounds yummy.

Don't you love how rockers can be so gay and yet so utterly straight at the same time? It's like Tyson Ritter spent a year with Johnny Depp in Pirates and came back a better man all together :)) Except Tyson Ritter swears more :P

Tyson lotions up his face. How awesome.

I always thought the girl in Another Heart Calls was a redhead D: I was imagining A Fine Frenzy Girl all-throughout and when I come up and watch the special on MYX to find she's blonde, I'm all what the hell D: as if my dreams are crushed an everything. I suddenly understand how Brandon feels about his little colored ball metaphor.

Anywayyyssss. Go listen to AAR. They are awesome.

P.S. Shut up, it would NOT have been better if Hayley Williams did Another Heart Calls.

Get down with the sickness

2009-07-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

As I am writing this blogpost, I am listening to one of my fondest pieces of music. A catchy little tune called Down With the Sickness by Disturbed.

Didn't think I'd listen to music like that huh? Well FYI I have my wonderful stock of Disturbed, Papa Roach and Tool thank you very much. But that is beside the point.

Well it's finally happened. I mean, when it did happen ~~conspicuously after Fruitas came to town~~ I was surprised we hadn't had a confirmed case of AH1N1 yet, but now that we do my instincts are at rest.

When they called us out to the front lob not too long ago I had this itching feeling that I was going to be one of the few who'd be disappointed about the cancellation of classes. I was right. Behind me, a third year girl who obviously needed to get a life screamed her lungs out in my ear. ~~I wanted to punch her in the face~~ I for one am tired of classless days.

Ohwell. I'm relishing the moment now - might as well make the best of it. And what better way to top off our school's first few confirmed cases of piggy flu than by watching movies about mass zombie epidemics and zombie apocalypses.

The way we are right now, there isn't much difference between a PSHS scholar stuck at home and a zombie who wants to eat brains (Pisay scholars just want to eat STR teacher's brains though).

They say we're being summoned back to school 27. Isn't that SONA or something? Meh, at this point if the quarantine gets any longer it won't really matter.

Waiting for the last few views before my contests ends :P Catch up when you can :D

See you guys in two weeks :P Hopefully my brain won't be full of mush by then.

Sitemeter is like an Internet Stalker

2009-07-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

You know why I love sitemeter? Well, I know where most of my pageviews come from, from what entry page and referral page they arrive by and how long and how often they visit.

It's awesome.

Thanks to sitemeter, I know that I have two viewers who got here by searching for the lyrics of Kate Micucci's "Screw You".

Also, I have ONE user who got here by searching on google, OONA NERY. (Oona, you have a fanboy. That, or you're a narci-googler.)

I have about 2 or 3 (unless they're the same people) who got to my site via Karlos Utanes' blog. (Gahd I hate the blog for its bloglist)

And I have about 40 that come via Yahoo.

Thankfully I don't have any referral or entry pages from lewd sites :P

Anyway, just a short post (:o ada actually has short posts). I have some STR to do.

This actually made me LOL IRL. Wishlist Update from last year.

2009-07-11T15:32:00.004+08:00

So I was reading back some thousand posts ago ~~instead of doing STR and ComSci because God knows those can wait til later~~ and found a wishlist post of mine and thought it be fun to see if any of my wishes actually came true that year. So let's see...

Buyables

Copic Markers - preferably the 72-piece set here, but the 36-color set will do as well.
Moleskine Sketchbook - may set me back 600-700 pesos. Must save.
To-Love-Ru and Zero no Tsukaima Figure - I saw one over at Trinoma *_*
Let's cross this out, I don't want one anymore :P
Plain White 8-GB USB Flash Drive - I plan on designing it like a phone lol.
Checkered Hoodie or a Hoodie from The Closet Queen
Knee-high platform boots that fit
Purple Tin Pencil Case (2 layer) - I just want one.
~~Penguin Plushie~~
I GOT ONE OVER AT ATLANTA! It's furry and looks just like Mumble <3
Funky Messenger Bag - Bright colors and standout print
~~Striped knee-high toe socks~~
Got these in a WALMART in LA before our trip to NY. I even got other designs 8D
~~Striped Arm and Leg warmers~~
Got these with the toe socks :D
Nail Polish - Yayayah colors or any of these
~~NEWS Winter Diamond Party Phone strap - like the one here.~~
I have to cross them out D: they're not available anymore D:
~~Kawaii Headphones - T_T I want this one.~~
I got something even better, SKULLCANDY HEADPHONES! But I still want another pair x_X
~~HSJ Shirt - I'd buy one myself, but the meet-ups are at Southmall.~~
I don't want an HSJ shirt anymore :D I already have an HSJ Calendar <3
My very own HELIUM PUPPY
Nendroid Figures LIKE THESE

Edibles

Samurai Ken Unagi Sushi
~~Mike and Ike - Tangy Twister~~
I have an infinite supply in the cafeteria
Crunch Milk Chocolate Stix
Strawberries
Karioka(sp?)
Jelly Belly Jellybeans
TGIF fries

Doables

Spraypaint Graffiti (illegally XD)
Garnet Outing (srsly guys, we need one)
Waterballoon/gun Fight
Date at Trelis |D
~~Sunset photography~~
Did them myself in Hawaii
~~Fireworks Display~~
Got one in Atlanta

Impossibles

Okamoto Keito
Yabu Kota
Brain USB - conceptualized by Estelle, so we can all just download memories into our PC.
The Power of Flight - So much less traffic
~~A prom date~~
Apparently, that WASN'T impossible.

Lol so yeah, a lot of my wishes came true on my trip the U.S. in the summer. Yipee~ Let's hope more of them come true this year :D

And like can lead to like-like, and like-like can lead to LOVE~

2009-07-09T21:32:00.004+08:00

So I've been bedridden for two days now and I only summed up the strength to get up to have some of my mom's wonderful chicken teriyaki <3

You know what I love about being in a pretty religious family? It's that Biblical topics are perfect table-top convo starters.

I mean in what other family would you be able to make the Mosaic Law dinner table conversation?

Like how there's a law that you shouldn't cook a goat in its own milk or how you shouldn't butcher a chicken and cook it with its own eggs. I find it very interesting.

And on a less disgusting note, I've been on a scrubs marathon for the most part of my conscious days in bed.

I am IN LOVE with season eight. Especially the episodes with Kate Micucci in them.

I'm particularly in love with her songs "Screw You" and "Mr. Moon"

Her songs have a very kiddy-song feel-good tone to them so they're VERY pleasing to the ears and seriously, she does WONDERS with her ukulele.

Here's one of my faves from Scrubs, and although I've been told on more than one occasion that people don't really give a rat's ass about the songs I post here, this isn't a japanese song, so that should count for something right?

Kate Micucci - Screw You

I've got so many questions in my mind.
I've got so many answers to find.

Can you be the man, I've imagined?
Am I imagical enough for this to happen?

Because I like you, I like you, I like you, I like you.
And like can lead to like-like, and like-like can lead to love...
Sure as the stars above I'd really like to (screw you) kiss you. Oh!

Can I be the man you're looking for?
Can I be your girl forevermore?

I'll try real hard not to lose her.
And I'll try to be less of a loser

Because I like you, I like you, I like you, I like you.
And like can lead to like-like, and like-like can lead to love...
Sure as the stars above I'd really like to kiss you~

I cleaned up the lyrics a bit :)) I still find it hilarious though :P It's also pretty sweet, huh? :D Go search for her other song, Mr. Moon you Youtube :)

Against my Better Judgment

2009-07-07T21:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish that my inner Ada would smack me in the face every time I decide to walk outside in the oval while it's raining. I mean, I've done it time and time again and always the same thing happens. I have a raging fever when I get home.

WHEN WILL I EVER LEARN

Having a fever is NOT FUN.

But I guess I'll have time to rest it off considering the school-instituted 5-day weekend. But lo and behold, that's not the end of it. As much as I'd want to go out, watch Ice Age, Harry Potter, UP, and Bruno, I can't because along with the 5-day weekend the school stuck us with, we have a crap load of homework and long tests to study for.

Yay for defeating your own point PSHS admin.

Didn't you give us a five day weekend so we could "rest up" and recover from our illnesses? In what way is giving extra homework and reading assignments cohesive with that intention? DO YOU WANT TO TO LACK SLEEP?????

Sorry, just ranting.

I'm really pissed right now and I don't even know why. I'll go ahead and blame it on hormones.

And the fact that Scrubs is over and they're making this REALLY bad spin-off with just Dr. Turk and Dr. Cox. I mean srsly? SCRUBS WITHOUT JD? It's dead to me.

Sound Tripping (Week 1)

2009-07-03T23:47:00.014+08:00

I've decided to make a weekly Sound Trip Post. Let's hope they last :P

I've been humming (and sometimes singing) a tune out of nowhere quite recently :P Estelle said she thought it was familiar so amma post it here ~~for no apparent reason~~. I think i posted the same video on my LJ once. It's a pretty old song by the Techno-Jpop group Perfume (the same group that sang Edge a few posts back)

I love this song because it's so post-apocalyptic earth without trying to sound too deep and serious, and the techno feel just tops it off wonderfully. You'd think that after listening to all that bubblegum JPop that the lyrics rarely contain anything deep in them, but you'd be surprised.

The translations below are just rough translations. Meaning I translated them to the best of my ability (which is semi-non-existent). So please correct any mistranslations you see or encounter :P

Kono michi wo hashiri susumi susumi susumi tsuzuketa
Chizu ni kaite aru hazu no machi ga miataranai
Furi kaeru to soko ni miete ita keshiki ga kieta
Kono sekai boku ga saigo de saigo saigo da
Electro World
Jimen ga furuete kudaketa
Sora no taiyou gaochiru boku no te ni hirari to

Hontou no koto ni kizuite shimatta no
Kono sekai no shikumi kimi ni tegami nokosu yo

Machi yuku neko datte sora wo tonjau machi de
Kimi no sonzau sae reality ga nai n da yo

Mieru mono no subete ga
Fureru mono mo subete ga
Reality ga nai kedo,
Boku wa tashika ni iru yo.

Kono michi wo hashiri susumi susumi susumi tsuzuketa
Chizu ni kaite aru hazu no machi ga miataranai
Furi kaeru to soko ni miete ita keshiki ga kieta
Kono sekai boku ga saigo de saigo saigo da
Electro World
Jimen ga furuete kudaketa
Sora no taiyou ga ochiru boku no te ni hirari to

Boku no te ni hirari to...

Kono sekai no suicchi oshita no wa dare na no
Mou sugu kieru
Electro world

Running on this road that goes on and on and on
It should have been on the map, yet I still can't find the city
Turning around to look at that place, I see it changing
This world is our last, the last, the very last
Electro World
The ground shakes and breaks,
And the sun in the sky has fallen into my hands

The absolute truth has been realized
I'll send the world's schematics(?) to you in a letter

A cat wanders the city, but somehow it navigates the sky instead
Even if you exist, reality doesn't.

I can see everything
I can feel everything
Even if reality doesn't exist,
I certainly still exist.

Running on this road that goes on and on and on
It should have been on the map, yet I still can't find the city
Turning around to look at that place, I see it changing
This world is our last, the last, the very last
Electro World
The ground shakes and breaks,
And the sun in the sky has fallen into my hands

Falling into my hands...

Someone pushed the world's switch
And very soon, it will disappear
Electro World

Ada and Memory Lapses

2009-07-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

Ahahaha, apparently I'm creating some kind of back-to-back get to know ada more series of posts lately. This is pretty much for the reason that I have nothing of real value to post and I said I'd revive this blog so I can't let you down.

Let's talk about something that has become increasingly annoying (and troublesome) lately. ~~Actually, it's almost to the point that I should actually start getting worried~~

Sometimes people have seen me staring off into space with a blank expression on my face. Most people poke me or wave their hand in front of me to break it.

What people don't know is that in that duration of time, I have become fully unaware of my surroundings as well as what transpired in the period between the start of my trance and me snapping out of it.

When I finally snap out if it, I laugh it off, smile, when inside I'm really thinking OH CRAP OH CRAP, WHAT'S HAPPENING, HOW DID I GET HERE AGAIN? WHAT WERE WE JUST TALKING ABOUT. CRAP CRAP CRAP

So if you notice, the period between when I snap out of it and actually re-enter conversation, my brow is furrowed or I assume my "headache stance".

Lol, it's not so bad. It mostly only happens when my brain isn't working so it at least it hasn't happened during class. It happened during bio once, but bio can't really be considered a class, so it's fine. And there was a powerpoint so I was able to regain my awareness pretty quickly.

Blah, I'm out of things to say, so lemme pimp out my CONTEST again. GO READ THE MECHANICS AND VOTE ON THE POLL!

:D

It's that time of year again.

2009-06-30T19:26:00.006+08:00

IT'S CONTEST TIME

You guys know that I haven't been as active as I intended to be before. So my 5000th view isn't coming as soon as I wanted it to.

BUT I STILL WANT YOU TO SCREENCAP IT FOR ME

The same terms and conditions apply as last year's contest except now, you have to post your screencaps ON THIS POST.

UPLOAD your screen caps into an image host (e.g. photobucket, imageshack, tinypic) and POST THE LINKS TO YOUR SUBMISSIONS on this post. INCLUDE YOUR NAME, SECTION AND CONTACT INFO. The prizes have still not yet been decided, so I'll be placing a POLL on the sidebar as to what prizes I'll be giving soon.

For examples on LAST YEARS ENTRIES, refer to this post

See you on my 5000th view!

Edit: GUYS, DON'T FORGET TO VOTE ON THE POLL!

Ada and responsibility.

2009-06-29T20:13:00.004+08:00

If you've hung out with me for awhile now, you'll probably know that the mere mention of responsibility has an adverse effect on me.

Well, it isn't actually responsibility. Just responsibility where I'm expected to work and do something. Yeah well, responsibility.

Ever so often people will ask me: "Hey Ada! Why don't you join this/that club? You'd be awesome!" or "Uy, why don't you join that committee/contest?" or "Wanna run for president/group leader?" and I reply with a sneeze and say I'm allergic to responsibility.

Clubs
I have never been one to join clubs. I tried that first year with Inkwell and SiSa and that blew up in my face. Besides, meetings and requirements even AFTER class? Just not my thing. And then there's having to deal with other batches and actually learning their names. I'll tell you this right now. I SUCK at names. I remember people's FACES perfectly but when it comes to names I might as well just tap you on the shoulder or call you pssst. That has nothing to do with responsibility but it annoys the heck out of me when people expect me to remember their names after one sighting x_x

Committees and Councils
Had you asked me about this in particular four years ago I would have replied with a big smile and feel flattered for the consideration. Now however, I look at you with terror-stricken eyes and flee for the nearest responsible person to dump all the work onto.

The work isn't the bad thing - I do more work on my own accord. What's really horrible is the criticism. If you mess up, or if what you do isn't up to par with the rest of the body, you're toast. And believe me, toast isn't as yummy as it seems.

And not only do you have to exert authority, you have to push your authority on other people. And I don't know if you guys have noticed, but people don't generally like being subject to authority. Especially authority that's 5 feet tall, has long hair and a big mouth.

Offer me a low-profile job, with no air-time and virtually an anonymous post and I'll consider.

Contests/Designing
Simple. I don't do work that has no merit to me. I'm tired of always being asked to submit something, when obviously they would rather pick somebody else's design. It's like they know you'll lose but they want you to submit anything anyway just so your self-esteem takes a blow as well.

On the contrary, I will do work if I get paid to do it. I love doing commissions, making blog layouts and photoshopping people's faces to make them look 10 years younger. Yes, I make a pretty steady income doing these things (if you don't believe me, ask the 2k in my wallet), and despite the sometimes heavy load, at least I get kicks out of it.

And contrary to popular belief, I do not just come up with good art out of nowhere. My thinking and creating process isn't a sudden impulse, and can rarely be forced out. I draw when I feel like drawing, I design when I feel like designing and I write when I feel like writing. The only exceptions to these are when I'm given specifics and I don't actually have to think. Yeah, thinking just isn't my forte at this point.

Groupwork
Let's backtrack to first year when I was the leader (or shadow leader) of almost every group I was in. It was never fun, and the teachers are out for your head if you forget any materials or screw any instructions up. It isn't fun when your whole group abandons you to do the work alone either.

So quite recently, I have taken to not accepting any group-leading roles, but I still do a lot of the work. That way, when I do the work, people feel more guilty and inclined to help. It makes a greater impact when a lowly groupmate does more work than a leader, doesn't it? :D (muhahaha for ulterior motives)

So yeah, responsibility and I don't really mix, whatever you people say. I will be responsible for my own grades and requirements. Anything outside that circle is dead to me.

~~OH CRAP MA'AM BERNAL MADE ME DIRECTOR OF READER'S THEATER NOOOOOOO~~

Memes, I've missed you so.

2009-06-27T23:36:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since I completed my last blog meme. I've done a lot over at Facebook, but doing one on my blog brings back memories. Got this from the guy I got the "Proudly Pinoy Blog" tag from. And just to kill some time while waiting for my Miggy vids and photos to upload, I'll go ahead and try it out.

10 really random things about me:

1. I can't sit cross-legged.
2. I like the smell of floor wax and shoe wax (for some unknown reason).
3. I don't like it when people tell me to make something and end up not using it.
4. My favorite ice cream is avocado.
5. My favorite colors are pastels but most the clothes I own are either black, dark blue, dark green or brown.
6. I have never had a nosebleed.
7. I am scared to death of zombies.
8. I love Dorks :))
9. I used to love reading and writing fanfics.
10. If asked for a random number, I will most probably shout out 53

9 things I want:

1. .005, .3, .5 and .8 inking pens
2. Red/Pink/Black Sony VAIO
3. Cintiq WACOM Pen Tablet
4. Copic Markers
5. Subscription to Wink Up/Myojo/Potato/Popolo
6. Japanese Fashion Boots/Accessories
7. Keychain
8. New pair of Skullcandy/iFrogz headphones
9. Starburst

8 things I carry/wear/use daily:

1. My I *heart* Dorks and Wassap, B rubber cufflets
2. Nokia N73 Music Edition
3. iPod
4. desktop
5. sketchbook
6. wallet (with all the crap inside)
7. PC
8. handcuff choker from atlanta

7 things that annoy me:

1. wrong grammar (even if it's mine)
2. hypocritical adults
3. unprofessional adults
4. long stoplights
5. people that wake me up in the middle of a good dream
6. people who think drinking beer makes them look mature
7. smokers

6 places I’ve vistited or I intend to:

1. Thailand (visited: also Laos and Myanmar)
2. Japan (plan to)
3. LA/NY/GA/CA/NV/HI, U.S.A. (visited)
4. London (plan to)
5. Australia (plan to)
6. France (plan to)

5 things I want to do before I die:

1. See/Witness aurora borealis
2. Skate at Central Park
3. Watch a Concert in Japan
4. Read the Bible five times through
5. Say goodbye to the people I love

4 things I am afraid of:

1. ZOMBIES
2. FAILURE
3. REJECTION
4. flesh wounds

3 things I do everyday:

1. Facebook
2. YM
3. Dream

2 things I’m trying not to do now:

1. Be distracted (I'm failing)
2. Watch TV

1 person I want to see now:

1. Otearai :))

It's not you, it's me. :))

2009-06-27T21:12:00.002+08:00

So yeah, apparently my blog gets around more than I am aware of, despite its being dead for a number of months. And to think I had this false sense of security posting here x_X Lol, it's fine. Blogs are generally public in the first place.

In all honesty, I actually have NOTHING to blog about today.

Yes, I could blog about our movie trip to watch Transformers, but we already seem to be the last wave of people who've seen it so blogging about it would be redundant.

*coughIcriedwhenOptimusdiedcough*

Ah! Here's something interesting to blog about.

I've been having really vivid dreams lately ~~aside from the usual influx of those best dreams ever over the past few months~~.

Lol this morning (I'm saying this morning because I woke up too early and then went to sleep again), I had a dream that there was this king who had loved a woman greatly but nobody approved of their marriage. So the usual crap happens and he has to throw her into a jail cell.

What people don't know is that they have a cute little baby and the baby's locked in the cell along with her mom.

Somewhere along the way the mom and the baby get turned into chickens.

Don't ask me why. I am yet to comprehend the inner workings of my subconsciousness.

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You were waiting for more?

B-but that was it :)) I never did get to find out what happened to the mom and the baby, for all I know the king could have eaten them.

The point is, my dream was vivid :)) I didn't say it made sense, I just said it was vivid. |D

Yes, that was a very pointless section of text right there.

Apparently, the general populous thinks I'm hyperactive and frank :)) And Lobitz tells me you can tell I'm in a bad mood by the way I smile.

Let's get this straight for all intensive purposes: I am almost ALWAYS smiling. So how people can differentiate between me in a good mood and me in a bad mood is baffling. So when someone tells me they can tell what my mood is by the way I smile, it freaks me out.

And it freaks me out even more when they go into detail about it. Apparently I have a full and genuine smile, a forced sad-happy smile, a murderous intention smile, and an "I think you're an idiot but I'm not going to say it because it's a waste of my time" smile.

Don't worry, it's mostly my full and genuine smile that comes out (well, at least I think it is). I've been sending off these murderous signals all this time and I didn't even notice. Kudos for me and my expressive face. You've got to admit, that's impressive.

But you can rest assured that if I'm close enough to have a conversation with you one on one, I am an open book. I will TELL YOU how I feel, and most of the time, if you know me well enough, you'll know without me having to say a single word.

Yes, Ada is a very complicated human being.

Distractions

2009-06-26T19:35:00.003+08:00

I posted awhile ago, and since I'm definitely making it a point to revive this blog, I don't see any harm in posting another.

I'd like to take the time to discuss "distractions".

In my case in particular, I am distracted by a number of things. And no, my short attention span doesn't particularly help. I'm sure a number of you have already noticed that.

I get distracted when I see something particularly "beautiful". Let's broaden that word.

What is "beautiful" in my opinion? Well, I find a few things beautiful that normal people usually wouldn't (surprise, surprise *insert sarcasm here*). Since it's impossible for me to give a direct meaning to the word in my context, let me make a list of things I find particularly beautiful.

I find the way chalk sometimes skids past the chalkboard forming what I call "rain lines" beautiful. The sound is exquisite. It's not a fetish, it's just pretty.

I find hair that's wavy and out of place at the right places beautiful. Don't look at me weirdly when I suddenly blurt out that your hair looks pretty (that goes for guys too)

I find the way some guys' shoulders are squared off so symmetrically beautiful. It's so intriguing. You know, like looking at Mt. Mayon's slope and thinking it's perfect? I get the same feeling when looking at broad, squared-off shoulders.

I find the way some people write curvy t's beautiful. I love curvy t's.

In the middle of a class, I will stop a teacher in his/her tracks just to admire his/her shoes. I'm particularly vulnerable when a teacher is wearing wedges just a tad bit taller than three inches. Wedges are love.

I find mini-tornados beautiful. You see them at the backlob when leaves spiral around and flutter in such a beautiful motion. I've only seen once when somebody pointed it out to me and I have, since then, been in love.

As you can see, it is no wonder why I get distracted so easily. Amidst studying for a test the very next period, I still manage to bust my way into conversation and forget to study at all. That's normal. It happens with anybody.

PEOPLE IN GENERAL DISTRACT ME

But when someone says that I distract them?

That's when I'm caught totally off guard, and for once in probably a very long time, my attention is focused on that one thing. That one tiny thing.

You. You better keep my secret :))

Here: Music Porn. Listen to it. You'll die of addiction.

Let's revive this dead blog.

2009-06-26T13:11:00.005+08:00

Soooo~ the last time I updated was probably about meh, about a month ago? I never really did get to writing that post about my stay in LA. And right now, I'd rather not blog about it at all, what with swine flu and crap - le gasp! If I blog about it, people will probably throw accusatory glares at me and tell me to quarantine myself.

Bleh

So what to write about?

I'm not as angsty as I was befor in my previous post. I think it's because my Edwarditis completely healed or something. And school's starting again and no matter how much I try to deceive myself into thinking that studying might actually make a difference, there's a little part of me that knows it never will.

On the brighter side of things, I LOVE DORKS.

Somebody asked me if he/she was a dork.

I was at a loss for words.

I guess it was just one of those really good days.

Speaking of good days, last Friday wasn't one of them. I totally abhor Citizen's Army Training. I admire the discipline and self-restraint it all requires, because God knows sometimes you just want to smack the living hell out of the people who came up with it. (Or is that just me?) Yeah, it's probably just me.

What else to talk about...

Ugh, there's nothing else to say. I could go on and on about how fun my summer was, but the summer high has sorta worn off so it'll be meh, awkward, you know?

I'm using meh a lot now. I've used it long ago as well, but somebody revived it. Blah. It's like Cuprous Morrow all over again. Copper Tomorrow if you insist.

And on something completely unrelated. Lots of guys in our batch (or at least certain ones from Charm) have a huge crush on this first year they lovingly nickname "Corpse Bride" which does no justice whatsoever to her prettiness.

There. I'm saying it - she's pretty. Why do girls say she isn't? (I'm a girl btw) I mean honestly, she is. From the side she looks like Cat Angangco and from the front she vaguely resembles Andie Reyes. She has a lolita body and adorns herself with emo-gothic accessories. She's pale and thin. Meh, actually "Corpse Bride" really does suit her. Meh, the point is, she's pretty.

And one of the guys I hold very very very close to my heart has a kiddie crush on her. It's adorable.

What else, what else, what else.

It's obvious by now that I'm rambling.

I applied for Microbiology and Biotechnology as my first choice btw. And Industrial Engineering as a second. I have no direction in life.

The reason I hate people who are so ambitious about their college courses and their course in life in general is because I'm jealous.

I wish my abilities were as narrow, focused and specialized as them. Unfortunately, when I took my career aptitude test, it told that I could do essentially anything and succeed. That doesn't help me very much does it?

So I'm stuck to picking the mode of all courses. (In case you're wondering why MBB and IE are suddenly considered "modes" in college courses, it's because I'm enrolled in an exclusive Science School called PSHS).

Damnit, sometimes I wish I were in a normal school - I'd probably turn into something cool like a clothing engineering or a broadcasting specialist.

Blah.

There's nothing else to talk about.

Last thing, just some food for thought:

We had a kidney lecture today (it's national kidney month over here), and the speaker was... well, let's just say he treated us like 6 year olds.

We come from a science school for pete's sake. We know what kidneys are for - and in no way is osmoregulation "too complex" for us. And why is it okay for you to explain to us Urinary Tract Infection in contexts of the "vagina", but not okay to blurt out a simple anatomic word like "penis". Get over it. It's a medical term, we're not 6 year olds.

That's it. Just felt pissed about that.

Take care of your kidneys :)

What a grand experience

2009-04-10T13:33:00.002+08:00

I've been here in America for about two weeks now.

The weather is taking its toll.

It had already been ubelievably cold in the tropical island of hawaii. Leave it to the gods to make it unbearably cold here in the mainland.

So far, I doubt anyone's missed me. I keep getting nagging messages from a certain someone, a quaint little backlobber, asking if I had gotten him the gravure magazine from Japan that he'd asked for.

Sorry Mark, not yet. I'll be getting it on my way back to the Philippines two weeks from now, AFTER the atlanta regionals.

Be patient ;)

My writing and thinking style has changed. I blame that on the day we took that Delta flight with personal screens so we can watch our own movies. Leave it to me to choose one of the sappiest movies on their movie selection to drive me into this sudden change in mental state. Yes, after four rigorous hours of comedy with Yes Man and Bedtime Stories, I had chosen to actually watch Twilight.

Three days later, and here I am, done with all four books of the saga and what chapters of Midnight Sun are posted on Stephanie Meyer's website.

And I thought I had a keen interest in vampires before.

Ahahaha the irony.

Let's leave that behind for now.

Hey, who would've guessed that Adam Sandler would love The Little Mermaid on Broadway just as much as I did.

I know I didn't.

We saw him over at the theater in New York.

We actually had better seats than Adam Sandler. -Cue inward laugh-

He was surprised I didn't ask for his autograph. He shook my hand instead.

Yay me.

I would continue this blogpost, and my multitude of rants if it weren't for my five year old cousin behind me.

I'll post more tomorrow.

Look forward to my swearing >:D

I'm not dead, actually maybe I am.

2009-03-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

You know how they say out of sight out of mind?

Screw that. :P

I'm not dead. I'm just reeeeeeeaaaaaaally lazy. And I've been busy with robo and the Lagablab Website

I'm leaving for Hawaii on Sunday, ahead of the team and I've been having mixed feelings about it all.

Here's a recap of what's happened in my life since.

The previous relationship quaintly named FISH by many is over. It's sad, but it had to happen. Sometimes I regret it, and then something reminds me why I made that decision.

The something that reminds me why I made that decision is a walking heartache. Why does life have to be so ironic. I have this really horrible feeling at the pit of my stomach though.

You know how people can be so closed-minded?

Well it's harder when two of your best friends are closed-minded, encasing you in this impassable trench of DOOM. You end up hating both but in a way favoring one or the other.

In the process I'm drifting away from both of them.

Ugh, Sigh, Blah.

I doubt the other one even gives a damn anyway :P He/she seems so absorbed in his/her world lately. Maybe I was just a plaything. Yeah, apparently she was right.

I hate it when I'm wrong.

And she was right about another thing too.

He IS nice. He IS fun.

Screw this, I'm going to bed.

Sorry, this isn't a real post. It's just a vent :P sorreh.

OMG this is retarded.

2008-12-30T01:32:00.003+08:00

And just when you thought the horrible Jap-English mix on Animax was bad.

There's nothing worse than wannabe Japlish D: ~~I admit, I was a sad victim of this passing fad before (see adictionary on old site), but I've stopped.~~ Actually hearing it IRL in actual conversation makes me realize how retarded it really sounds.

I have to admit though, I was entertained - mainly because of the whole ROFL WTF factor it had. I mean seriously, how many times can these people say NE NE NE NE NE NE NE NE as space-fillers in their sentences.

I actually *sort of* appreciate that they try to incorporate Japanese words and all that crap, and speak in English so viewers can understand, but if you can speak Japanese as fluently as both of them do, why dull it down with retarded mid-sentence language switches x_x That's what SUBTITLES are for. Although I admit it wouldn't be much of a RADIO show if they had put subtitles.

I don't know, it's just sort of pointless to me. Regardless of whether my total Shinju hate is involved or not, it's actually getting some good reception in the Japanese community - be it from the LOLs and WTF or the WOWs and OMGs, whatever. At least she's not raving about Chinen as much anymore (needless to say, she is STILL very delusional).

Go view her new channel at SHINJU1993. Bad publicity, Good publicity - any publicity is good publicity. So go laugh at her like I did or admire her in her total Jap-freakness or whatever. I still think it's pretty retarded :P

Wooh, long overdue Picture post.

2008-12-22T22:50:00.004+08:00

Lol, actually I have a lot to post, and I'm contemplating whether or not to move back to LJ. So blah. I have a lot of stuff to do.

First, I'm gonna try starting the Team Website for the FIRST Robotics Competion. I really don't know how I'm going to approach it - I'm thinking it has to look more professional rather than bloggy, so I'm thinking a simple layout with a catchy header would do, but then that'd be too boring, so I have something different in mind :P You'll just have to find out. Hopefully, I'll be done by the end of the week. I'm not sure if I'm REQUIRED to do this, for all I know, someone's already doing one, but I might as well [out of boredom].

Speaking of Roboooo.

Cat finally posted the pictures on her facebook and with her permission amma post some here :P You'll have to add her up (if you know her) to see the rest. :P

Let's start with the source of these photos, Miss Cat :D As TJ said, her outfit was so Hollywood. She looked like she jumped off fashion TV or something lol.

And then there are my team mates.

Justine, Trixy, and Cat for the Mobo Comp

During Labview lecture

After winning Mobo Comp

And then there's JJ, JP, Charles, Tutti, and Trixy (again lol) for the Dancing Robots Comp

Trixy and I with our winning Patrick Star

Tutti positioning Spongebob and Patrick

Charles and JP (I kept getting them confused) with our dance program

After winning

And more random pics :))...

Lol, Buffet Traffic :D

Mobo Testing :D

Watching Presentations...

And again...

And again...

Brandon and the merry men (I have no idea what they are):D

Lol, Lance is just sleeping.

Pre-Labview Lecture.

Our Mobo! We won first place :D

TJ and their dancing Robots, Jigglypuff and Poporing :D

Our Winning Spongebob and Patrick and the other Dancing Robot Mascots

And Finally...

FIRST Robotics Competition, Philippine Team

It's so weird not being 14 anymore :o

2008-12-13T18:32:00.003+08:00

Ahahahahaha, everyone that gets the title just shhhhhhhh mmkays?

So yeah "birthday" post. Birthday is in quotations because I don't celebrate birthdays. In my household it's just like any other day, except instead of IMs about homework, tests and assignments, I get IMs wishing me a happy birthday... AND THEN about homework, tests and assignments. LOL.

Thanks for everyone who greeted, especially the Robo people who helped me "celebrate it" yesterday, over at McDo - Mai, Kristina, Jasmine, Cat, TJ, Esguerra, Charles, Job and JJ. Ahahaha, it was fun.

Today, I got some really sweet texts (even from people I didn't expect), some worth reading, some not. Some that made me cry, some that made me smile. I got a whole lot of Happy Sweet Sixteen's EVEN THOUGH I'M STILL 15 -sadface-.

Isabel even gave me my very own birthday post!

And I got two letters.

I can't say that my birthday was as big as Gaby's, AA's, or Raph's. Nor was it as well-prepared for as Arriele's, Cam's or Nico's. My birthday will never be as special to people as Estelle's, Isabel's or anyone for that matter and sure as hell, nobody would spend money that they could on Xmas on me LOL. But just knowing that I have people that value the day I came into being is gratification enough for me.

Thanks for remembering.

Now I only wish I could grow taller D:

I find this interesting :o

2008-12-13T16:05:00.002+08:00

Stolen from Agnes (w/o permission. Sorry D:)

1. Guys don’t actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn’t understand you, it simply means you’re not thinking the way he is.
5. “Are you doing something?” or “Have you eaten already?” are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he’ll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl’s smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl’s attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can’t. And they surely have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don’t provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy’s heart, there’s no turning back. (So girls touch ur guys heart)
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like “You know what?!..uh…never mind!” would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged “umm” or makes any excuses when you’re asking him to do you a favor, he’s actually saying that he doesn’t like you and he can’t lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says “no”, a guy hears it as “try again tomorrow.”
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly. (So don’t give confused signals, and expect guys to understand them)
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn’t mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossi scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It’s good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don’t let him wait that long. (He will give up on you)
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they’re not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don’t need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys’ fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls’ height doesn’t really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It’s not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they’ve been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he’s too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won’t be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he’s sweating. You’ll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he’s just actually saying, “Please come and listen to me”
59. Guys don’t really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something. (He generally has a lot of frustration in mind then)
63. Guys believe that there’s no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don’t like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him. (So girls you should think of making the first move)
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy’s friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don’t be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection. (So don’t play with a guy you really like, you will lose him)
73. Don’t be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you’ll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don’t comprehend the statement “Get lost” too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don’t care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them,they’ll realize they’re wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He’s just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys’ weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he’s amazed of you or he’s criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you’re with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience. (They learn it the harder way)
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can’t sleep if he doesn’t hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes. (So girls you gotta give good guys a chance too, they are generally shy about girls)
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys’ things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you’re beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact. (So don’t be too demanding or complaining)
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

I don't agree with all of these, but I put in bold some numbers I find particularly intriguing and worth keeping in mind

Tagaytay Robo :OOOOOO

2008-12-07T18:36:00.002+08:00

Lol, so we drove all the way up to Tagaytay on the PISAY BUS just to get the hang of the basics in Robotics, which is quite silly, considering what we did in Tagaytay, we could have done in any other hotel in Manila.

But like our motto for the entire trip, "We can't complain, cuz it's free."

When we got to Tagaytay Country Hotel, we were greeted by this cute little welcome tarp. Hwaw, feeling important.

And when we got into the conference room we were treated like delegates - we even got free ballpens, pencils, notebooks and IDs. Lol

We ended up having to introduce ourselves and like always, I hadsome difficulty with my name. In the end, Brandon convinced the mentors that my name was Aba. -sadface-

Substantial amounts of our time were spent in that conference room, first with the Dancing Robots activity and then the Line-tracing activity.

For the first activity, I was grouped with Trixy, JP, JJ, Charles, an Tutti. Lols, we got the proogies with us. We had to program a robot to dance to music of our choice, additionally, we had to design our "mascots" or robot tops to match the music. The software used ended up being a bit like timing subtitles - except with instructions, velocities and directions instead of words.

Our group picked Spongebob and Patrick as our mascots and our song was, of course, The Campfire Song Song. Ahahaha, we were given a big block of styro, some illustration board, tape, cartolina and foil. Choosing our mascots as they were was a plus - what can be easier to make out of styro than a sponge and a star? JJ did the cutting, Tutti did the covering, I did the design and Trixy helped color. JP and Charles did the timing and choreography. All in all,we made a pretty good team, and it wasn't as awkward as I had thought.

We ended up making really kick-ass Spongebob and Patrick Figures. The other groups had Sweeney Todd and Mrs. Lovett, Aladin and Jasmin, Poporing and Jiggly Puff, and two random arm-swining men dancing to The Epiphany, A whole New World, Shut up and Let me go and a song I do not know the name of.

Ahahahaha, it was hilarious when the robots actually hit the dance floor. Puro chambahan at crossfingers na lang. In the end, we got First Place, Jigglypuff and Poporing got second and Aladin and Jasmin got third. We got cookies :o

After that we went on to line-tracing with sensory robots. I was grouped with Trixy (again), Justine and Cat. We ended up having to program and modify the velocities (on and off time) of the two independent wheels of our Mobo. On our first mod-try we got 40 seconds, on the second we got a 44. Then on the actual run we got a 55 -sadface-. We still won first place though, partially because of luck. But after the contest was over we modified the speeds another time, increasing the response rotation on time by 50 and lessening the speed to a 550. We got 49 seconds. Ohwell.

The rest of the night was freetime, random random free time. I watched Enchanted for the first time ever, watched the guys (Joel, Esguerra, Brandon, Kokoy, Mai, Charles, etc) play pool and room hop like there was no tomorrow.

We established, through this all that Gender separation in rooms is futile, because in the end, we all just flock together anyway. We had the whole floor to ourselves, it was refreshing. Kristina taught Charles how to play Pusoy Dos and Job, Juan, Anton, Chuck, Lance and the others just occupied themselves with their video games.

By the time it reached 12, the adults were still at a meeting, so we pretty much threw the notion of sleep out the window. I wouldn't have gone to sleep had it not been for Brandon who scared the living daylights out of me with his zombie talk D: He made me cry.

After all that, it's a miracle how we found the willpower to wake up at 6:00, dress up, have breakfast and send people off to mass. The people who didn't go - Me, TJ, Kristina, Kokoy, Brandon, Joel, Anton, Juan, and Esguerra took all the time we had. We spent some idle time with Brandon, who took it upon himself to make the most out of the numerous couches situated around the hotel to catch up on sleep. After that, TJ, Kristina, and I spent some time with two of our mentors and played some "tennis".

By the time we got back to the rooms, everyone was up, once again, playing video games. You'd think they'd drop dead after 10-12 hours straight of eye strain, but no, they just kept on going. Somehow, it makes me proud lol.

Our last activity in Tagaytay was the ComSci Software lecture on Labview, to simulate signals, etc, that we might be able to use for our robots. We were supposed to have team-building sports, but meh, we didn't have time.

In the end, I had a lot of fun, and got to know a lot of people better. I still think that DOST's expecting too much out of us, but maybe, in some miniscule way or another, this teambuilding really did help us, and might help us once again in the future.

Things we accomplished
1) Robo Prep
- sensors
- locomotion
- Programming
- basic mechanics
- software handling
2) Acquaintance-making
3) Team Building

Things we didn't accomplish
1) Team Name
2) Team Website
3) Sponsor Gathering.

Things I still need to do
1) Physics Probset
2) STR Exercises
3) STR Reporting
4) Bio
5) English
6) Fil

Late Fair Post

2008-11-30T12:06:00.004+08:00

I liked this years fair |D But that's purely my opinion. I, for one, think that the quality of the fair is based on how you spend it and who you spend it.

3rd Year Fair
1st Year Fair
2nd Year Fair

Fortunately, our class was blessed with the awesome booth that is Hit N Run, Pisay's certified assassination booth. It's fun watching people make war amongst themselves using sticky foam, flour, eggs, water balloons and water guns. We made a decent profit and it wasn't as boring as I had thought. Thank God we got a tent - it would've been much harder if we hadn't had any shade.

The concessionaires weren't half bad either - they actually got ICE MONSTER and FRUITAS, a big step up from all the crap-artificial Zagu we usually have. And inviting the Dart, Cans, and Pellet Gun Booths that usually come over for the UP fair was a good move as well. At least we had things to do to pass the time.

In place of the usual wall we have for climbing, they got some inflatables, which weren't all that bad, provided you got on them when it wasn't so sunny.

I'm sounding so formal. ahahahaha

But either way, everybody knows that the highlight of the Pisay fair rests not on the fair itself, but the Awesomeness that is the Pisay Concert (minus the KJ people who sit down and rot away while watching)

What made it even more awesome was having Joaq bring his friends from Xavier along. God, it's be ages since I've seen them. JPOC IS SO TALL and FRANCIS SHAVED. I barely even recognized Aaron.

Which reminds me (off topic):

Aaron looks like Inoo Kei. He even sounds like him. Too bad he had his hair shaved, otherwise he would be a splitting image of him. He just needs a little sprucing up and he'll be a certified Japanese hottie ;D =)) lol

For people who don't know who Inoo Kei is:

It was awesome. And for once, it wasn't SO DEAD. It was amusing how the utter FAIL and WIN of some bands brought our batch "together". Almost the whole of the 2010 students who attended were up front and standing and bouncing around and I found it so hilarious how Carlo just happened to seem like he guzzled down a whole bottle of Enervon before the concert.

I had to leave early though, about 10, right after Sir Guce's perf. It was AMAZING. He really makes it hard to believe that a guy like him and a guy like Sir Talaue can coexist in one Unit. He was swearing and screaming and making lewd gestures whilst singing Ordertaker. I love him. Like I said, I left right after his performance, so in the end I didn't even get to watch Giniling Festival perform D: I feel horrible. I guess Sir Guce was the closest I'd get to Giniling. Him and Mike's Appartment *whose album rocks btw*

A lot of stuff happened during the fair, some worth mentioning, some not. In the end, it's all a blur, and I'm left wondering and confused about some things, and hoping that this isn't the end.

C^2 and duel against another bunny - of the dust species.

2008-11-28T22:47:00.004+08:00

I got the white bunny rabbit I wanted a few posts back |D from Isma :o

It's prettier and cuter than I expected, and it's a GIRL! It's a bit bigger than slumberdoll's Model-Bunny, Dragon, but it's a lot cuter because its eyes aren't just red - they're a shiny ruby-pink kind of red and it makes her look so cute.

We settled on naming her Cotton Candy, or C^2, quite appropriate for the festive theme that is the Pisay Fair 2008.

I let C^2 loose in my room and she went under my bed and almost got lost x_x When she came back out she had this huge dust bunny on her face. She kept sorta scratching her face but she couldn't get rid of it ahahaha, hilarious.

She's such an active little thing, it's so hard to keep up with her. She's made her way through my laundry hamper, my closet, my bed and my work table. Thankfully, she didn't make a mess in any of those places. She's actually pretty hygienic - I love her already.

Right now she's chewing on a piece of cloth I rolled up into a bed for her to sleep in. It gets cold in my room at night and we wouldn't want her to catch a cold now, would we?

My mom wants to transfer C^2 into the old cage we used for our 4 guinea pigs. It's pretty big and has a built in bottle, wheel (big enough for C^2), a toilet area, a feeding area and a sleeping area.. Only problem is we don't have wood shavings so if we do transfer her now, it'd be a mess of poo and pee D:. I think C^2 contented with her cage though. She seems to like small spaces as compared to wide open areas. Not to mention her current cage is much easier to clean lol.

This is the most awesome day ever. THANKS ISMA <3

I'll post a separate Fair Blogpost and C^2 picspam tomorrow after the concert :D Amma go tuck C^2 in now =3

Lol Flirty Greenwich Waiter

2008-11-27T23:01:00.003+08:00

So today was a very meh day. We had the FIRST Robotics Comp "orientation" today and got free turon and buko juice out of it. I loled at the mentor's english - machining machines. Ahahahahahaha.

Highlight for unimportant Robo-blah

I'm seriously planning on going, and what's awesome is that my mom's actually being SUPPORTIVE this time around. I'm starting lean towards attending but I'm not exactly sure which category I fit into - Mechanical Engineering, Electrical Engineering or Software and Programming. People prodded me about non-existent webdev "skills", so I might end up in Marketing for the Website more than anything else. I feel so useless.

Not to mention I think that DOST's expecting WAAAAAAY too much from us. Our robot's supposed to be 120lbs and equipped with a well-programmed AI system, although there might be a category for Remote Controlled Robots. Can you say FAIL? I find it funny that we're going to be put up against teams like Team NASA - Atlanta or Team Microsoft - Doohicky and our name's just a jumbled string of letters consisting of the acronyms of all the organizations involed - UPDLSUDOSTPSHSlkajfkjefh. Yeah. We're awesome yo. The Phil's making its debut and I'm hoping we'll live up to their "expectations".

In all honesty, the mentors did sound a bit doubtful as to the outcome of the competition but meh, it looks like a good experience, win or lose.

Back on track...
So after class we "prepared" our booth for the fair. It rained like crazy - foreshadowing of hell that is to come. Big ass lightning ensued.

We ended up only finishing the booth sign today - no thanks to Rosal 2011. At least they came up and asked what they could do for tomorrow. I was glad they did - we were thinking of not giving them a portion of the profits if they kept slacking off. It was funny just watching them watch us working and not even offer to help ahahaha. Not to mention Nikki Reyes and her blonde moments.

Us: We're an assassin booth, we're going to have water guns, eggs, balloons, etc.
Nikki: OOH! We're having balloons? Can we fill them with helium?
Us: They're WATER baloons.

FAIL.

Courtney and other people went over to SM to buy water guns. They got ripped off. They got their waterguns for a hundred a piece and I got my big-ass water gun (air pump and auto shoot) for a hundred and fifty. And not to mention I saw the same guns Courtney and the others but selling for 3 for a hundred over at Ever. I sort of feel bad. What a waste of money D:

After getting my big-ass gun, my mom decided to go frugal on me and use her BPI credit discount thing over at Greenwich, where I met this totally awesome (and pretty cute) waiter-part-timer-dude-guy ahahahaha.

It was funny. You know how fastfood employees always go "Welcome to ___ ma'am." and people usually ignore them? Well, I'm not that kind of person. If you know me well enough, you'd notice that I'd sort of bow, smile and occasionally say thanks whenever they do that. This guy took notice. IT WAS HILARIOUS

So I settled down on our table while my mom ordered and mister waiter-part-timer-dude-guy comes over and wipes the table off even though it's clean. He smiles and goes "Okay na miss?". I mentally ROTFL.

And then when our order comes he bugs us incessantly about our food and blah and we dismiss it with thank you's and thanks for asking's.

He comes to take our plate away a bit too early and he goes "Okay na po miss." and when he turns around to leave he mumbles "Jeremy." Ahahaha.

LOL sad.

When we leave, he does the custom "Thanks for dining" bit and I reply with a "Thanks Jeremy" and he laughs and... wait for it... WAVES

LOL FLIRTY GREENWICH WAITER

Ahahaha funny day?

2008-11-26T18:32:00.003+08:00

I think I failed math. Boo me for forgetting how to do systems of equations. Ahahahaha Antanga ko talaga

Gino says I give good massages. Maybe I should just quit school and become a massage therapist.

I actually didn't fail chem. I thought I was going to fail chem. Maybe quitting school was a bad idea. Lol.

Apparently, I'm the one with all the problems. Apparently, I have nothing better to do with my life. Apparently, I'm a pitiful little p*tang ina.

Apparently, I'm the one who screams profanity for attention. Apparently, I'm the one who has to make people feel insecure so I can feel comfortable about myself. Apparently, I'm the one who's indecisive and has a problem with life. Apparently, I'm the one with all the problems.

I'm the one who wants to degrade myself instead of looking at my wrongs and correcting them. I like blaming my faults on others instead of taking responsibility for them. Yeah, apparently, I AM JUST. THAT. AWESOME.

Yeah, that's me :D I'm a nobody with no future so I take it out on teachers and classmates and I write emo poetry about unrequited love and scream out for love with profanity.

I have awesome friends but I take them for granted. I had someone who loved me and put up with me, even if I gave out all this bullshit, but nah, I'd rather have somebody just as indecisive as me. I'm happy for myself :D The other person? Yeah, he's finally getting over me.

But I like getting mad at people when I see them happy and no, I don't like it when people get over their crushes on me.

Yehp. That's me. Marami akong problema sa buhay. Dapat umuwi na lang ako. Wah, kawawa naman ako D:

Who has the problems again? ahahaha.

Btw, Cotillion was fun ahahaha. Jaymari didn't step on my feet. I'm glad he didn't, or else I would have been an even more pitiful wreck of a human being than I am now D:

Stolen from Camilla

2008-11-23T12:44:00.003+08:00

Stolen from Camilla who stole it from Alegre.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
- My hair looks so much better in the morning that it does in the afternoon =_=

2. How much cash do you have on you?
- 3,030, not including fair money D:

3. What words rhymes with "DOOR?"
- GORE! >=D

4. Favorite planet?
- Neptune (It used to be Uranus until the innuendos started coming up. Meh, they're both blue anyway)

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
- Mai Dealino :o

6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
- Hoshikuzu Sunset by Yuki or Yabai-Yabai-Yabai by Matsumoto Jun.

7. What shirt are you wearing?
- Pambahay baby-doll shirt with light floral pattern |D

8. Do you "label" yourself?
- Yes, but not aloud.

9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing.
- Uhm my flip-flops are from Ipanema. Softer, prettier and sturdier than Havs ahahaha. Plus a portion of the profits go to African tribes or something ahaha.

10. Bright or dark room?
- Bright room.

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
- Camilla? Lol, underrated crush ng bayan who's smart, pretty, sporty and everything. Magaling pang umarte. Masyadong perfect ahahaha.

Ba't laging may kulang na number sa mga survey na 'to? :o

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
- Honestly? Watching Asian versions of HSM LOL.

14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
- "K, chem LT on tuesday. I texted sir na =D"

15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
- The nearest I know is over at Novaliches pa. And then there's the Ministop along Commonwealth.

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
- "Crap" and "Sorry"

17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
- Ehehehehehehe.

18. Last furry thing you touched?
- Gumma-bear |D

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
- Two Biogesics and lots of Multivitamins :D Does that count?

20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
- Film? I think the last roll of film we had developed was 8 years ago x_x

21. Favorite age you have been so far?
- Eight. Definitely.

22. Your worst enemy?
- Right now? Poetry. And Zombies. Probably Poetic Zombies.

23. What is your current desktop picture?
- A really old NEWS Wallpaper I made.

24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
- "Thanks mom" (for the lunch).

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
- Fly. Then I could earn money as an attraction or something. Although I may need sky permit and crap.

26. Do you like someone?
- Ehehehehehehehe.

27. The last song you listened to?
- I'm not sure if it was Hamster on a Piano or Anata to Ita Toki, the Japanese version of When there was Me and You.

Bored. Again.

2008-11-22T21:56:00.004+08:00

Nobody knows what the assignments are for next week, so I went ahead and just went back to sketching out of boredom.

I was not, however, bored enough to put so much effort into coloring the sketch, thus resulting in the little piece of garbage below.

Pattern from here

Ignore the out-of-line coloring. Just pretend it's a new type of coloring style.

I've been reading too many Lolita magazines for the English Jap presentation. (Irony.)

Ada is waging war against poetry.

2008-11-22T01:04:00.005+08:00

I used to write a lot of poetry as a wee-little child, and by child I mean grade schooler and by wee-little I mean stupid, ignorant, naive and without a life.

I have nothing against good, thought provoking poetry. Nor do I have anything against the awesome poems Andrea showed me from one Anita Liberty's awesome books.

I do, however, have something against poetry that snapshots nature and needs no explanation because plainly and simply, WTF HOW VAGUE IS THAT? I hate English Period

English Period Sucks.
The teacher sucks just as much.
Haikus are stupid.

And one more rant...

Hey, you. You know who you are.

I've been avoiding you - you haven't noticed. It's not the first time and it probably won't be the last. Every time you realize it - it's too late, and every time you ask me why I decide that it isn't too late.

You say there's no hurt in trying - well there is. You ASSHOLE. You say that you'll always be there for me, well guess what, I'm tired of waiting.

You are a selfish bastard, yes you are. You deserve her - then you can both be selfish asses together. Yes, selfish asses that string people along, break their hearts, put them back together and break them apart again.

Fuck you and your poetry. Fuck you and your emoness. Fuck you and your "I can't live without you."

I tell you I don't want to be your friend anymore. You tell me I'm important to you. I ask you why. You tell me it's because we're "close" friends. Well fuck that. Friends don't string people along and drag them on the asphalt and watch them crumble at your feet.

It would have been fine AGES ago if you'd just let me get over you. But you wouldn't. What did you say? "You don't have to get over me to be friends". You little egotistic bastard.

When you didn't have her, you'd turn to me as a last resort - everyone needs to be loved. Then when you have her again you pretend nothing happened. You say you feel things for me, you feel NOTHING.

Everyone needs and deserves to be loved.

You don't - because you take it for granted and throw it away.

I pity the next person that falls for your traps or hers. I won't be surprised if she leaves you again and you both make a little fuss about it, go find other people, then get back together and end up having more people to string along.

Fuck you.

IHY. YJDKI.

Fuck you. Fuck your poetry.

I just needed to get that off my chest. Sorry for the profanity <3

Image heavy boredom.

2008-11-22T00:37:00.006+08:00

It's Friday. ~~The Singaporeans are leaving soon *sadface*.~~ When it comes to Friday's people usually take the time to rest up and relax before facing assignments, work and other crap like that. The weird thing about me is that rather than resting, I work. I work, work, work on useless crap that will waste my time and get me nowhere. I draw, I right, but I never come up with anything consequential. Everything I do during the time that I "work" comes up futile.

It's like a subtle foreshadowing of my life.

So for the past few hours (after having finished the worksheet part of Physics), I've been designing t-shirts. I know I should actually be starting on our ComSci site thing, but I work better on sites under time pressure, so amma leave that for later.

I love designing t-shirts. I love drawing clothes. I think that's a given, considering my art posts on this blog. Sometimes I think I should go into fashion, but then remember I'm stuck in Pisay. It's depressing really.

T-shirts are just one of the few things I like designing and decorating. It's fulfilling, and it's a very unique way of expressing yourself. ~~If only I had the wit and humor to do it better~~

These are a few past (and most rejected) designs I had in mind from before.

First Year Batch T-shirt. -REJECTED-

Second Year Batch T-shirt. -REJECTED-

Second Year Batch T-shirt.The only part that's mine is the hand.

Fair 2007 Shirt -REJECTED-

Shirt Design Commission NOT USED

And finally what I've been working on today out of boredom...

2010 Shirt Design

As you may have observed, most of my designs were, rejected, and not even used. D: I'm not very good at this, but for the sake of having a dream and fooling myself into thinking I have a chance of attaining the dream, I work.

Sigh, boredom

Ada-stalker iz back :o

2008-11-20T19:50:00.001+08:00

Stalker-Ada iz back. :o

I blame Estelle. She is such a bad influence LOL.

I'm looking forward to SocSci tomorrow |D

I will post a better entry after I study chem D: Or not.

Ada's brain = jelly

Jinx, stress and realizations

2008-11-19T21:21:00.005+08:00

Lol, I am officially a jinx. I have noticed a pattern in the past few days and it's not very amusing.

So yeah, I'm not usually so much of a clutz - I just seem like one when I'm high and lacking oxygen from too much laughing. But yeah, I always seem to injure myself every PE. It's not just every other PE period, it's EVERY PE period. I think I've mentioned on my LJ blog that balls and projectiles seem to have me as their homing target WHEREVER I GO. Seriously. I get hit by soccer balls, Frisbees, softballs, hard balls, baseballs, basket balls, shuttlecocks, you name it. Srsly, wai? D:

And today an obscure little rock popped out of nowhere on the field and tripped me, causing a now semi-swollen sprain on my foot. D: I'm a jinx.

Another thing I've noticed is that I tend to stress on the littlest of things - Take for example STR today. After hearing the activity was due the period itself I rushed Elvis and the data, ending up making a mistake with our class intervals (partially Elvis' fault and mine as well). I thought that after making that mistake we'd be so pressed for time that we wouldn't make it, but eventually we ended up being the first to submit. I am such a stress-maniac. And to think I was being so OC about an STR activity. I should seriously stop being such a ruler-phile.

And apparently, Gina says I have a "friend with benefits" ahahahahahaha. Not those kinds of benefits though. It's pretty funny the way we came to that conclusion, but I can't really copy paste the conversation because it's... not for young audiences ahahaha.

So yeah, I didn't want to sound so self-centered on this post, but I ended up making it seem that way anyway, so nothing I can do there.

P.S.
EITHER CAM OR ISMA (not sure who) IS GONNA GET ME A BABY RABBIT :O

I've wanted one for so long. Preferably one that looks like this D:

Personality Test

2008-11-15T20:02:00.000+08:00

Bored. Took it here

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Closure

2008-11-13T11:28:00.006+08:00

THIS POST STANDS FOR CLOSURE

I left this comment on a blog:

di naman galit ang mga tao sa gumawa, pero ung GINAWA ng gumawa. So ibig sabihin, di naaalter ung pagmalas namin sa iyo o sa iba pang tao. Kung ganun edi ang tanga naman namin.

Ako nga di ko na nga sinsabi ung issue na un IRL kasi alam ko naman nagsisisi mga tao. Kaya nga sa blog ko na lang nasulat kasi ayoko maaffect mga IRL-relationships

So un, at least alam mo, at alam ko na hindi ako galit sa inyo o sa kanya, kundi sa katangahan na ginawa niyo. Either way, over na siya at wala na tayong magagawa.

It's all about tolerance yo.

At walang kwenta post ko - inaamin ko na. Pamparelease lang un ng pent-up anger at stress. So kung maghahanap kayo ng constructive na post, basahin niyo either ung kay nigel o ung kay sir Joey.

Pero un, tapos na. Di na kailangan isipin. At least you're taking responsibility for your actions, so I'm gonna take responsibility for mine :)

For those that think my "I feel Proud Post" was to brag that the site was taken down:
That post was to brag that I found "Patrick GO", not because the site was taken down.

To those who say that not all the girls were offended/wala silang nakitang ibang naoffend:
Not all of them were, pero meron pa rin. It's better to take offensive posts down or negate them, which is why I'm addressing my previous post now.
Other girls have commented about the issue too, isangkampana, normaldudette, girl-onthewall, oona-nery, and even another blog from another batch, just to name a few. And take note - we were offended, but that doesn't mean we HATE you.

To people who think that we think we won.
Nothing is "won" here. The issue was just RESOLVED. The rest is grey area. There is no right or wrong, but we do know that in essence, the execution of this survey/ranking/poll was grossly misconducted. Nobody is "closed-minded" for being offended. And I take back my comments about insensitivity and cavemanism because those were not your intentions at all, although it apparently seemed that way.

To people who say that the terminology "scrap" wasn't meant offensively
It doesn't matter - there are better ways to say "scrap", just as there are better ways to say "cavemen". I am taking responsibility for my words and saying that I was wrong, so YOU SHOULD TOO.

And btw, xfacekillahcrossx, this isn't the first time I've seen offensive things on your blog, so you should learn to choose your words as well - reread ALL YOUR POSTS. There is at least one condescending thing in each post. I meant it when I said your blog is full of misplaced opinions about others. And no, "being known for egotism" isn't a good thing. And I don't think egotism is even the right word, it's more like feeling. But if that's just the way you write and you can't help it, nothing we can do there.

To people who still want to bring this issue up on this blog.

DON'T.

I've already admitted that my post was out of place and is not a good basis for judgment regarding the issue.
The only two posts that you need to read are

THE CREATOR'S
and

SIR JOEY'S
for the most concrete rebuttals and views on the issue.
I've gotten over it already, and people who say I'm a bitch or insecure are really asking for it.

So there - this is closure. IT'S OVER. You just REAAAAALLY want to MILK THE DRAMA don't you?

Dahlia Reunion Party

2008-11-13T10:34:00.004+08:00

I missed a third of the festivities because of a dentist appointment and arrived only at 9:00 pm.

A lot of unexpected people were there [yo]. Borgy, Mark and Al were there for some reason ahahaha. When I got there they were DotAing and playing basketball. First thing I did was eat [OMG, ADA ATE :O]. Borgy gave me a ridiculously large amount of spaghetti so Marven finished it for meh LOL.

Then Mahjong and pseudo-drunkenness ensued. Borgy and the other hardcore intsik people joined in - Plus Gorio and Al. Al's Mahjong "Flower" pieces spelled out PENIS.

Kung kayo marami kayong flowers, ako lang may PENIS.

Lance taught us how to play REAL mahjong with his maangas moves [yo]. And then left cuz of his Chem thing tomorrow. Then Ma'am Sagucio popped out of nowhere and started playing basketball with Jasper. Ahahahaha parang lasing si Ma'am. Pero hindi |D.

Gorio showed us Dementium on his DS - in the dark cold night, so I was screaming bloody murder because of the zombies. I have such a low tolerance for zombies.

Athena and Ma'am Sagucio left after that.

We got tired and after Castro stopped hogging the Wii we went all COOKING MAMA!

WONDERFUL! BETTER THAN MAMA!

Quote of the day

We laughed especially hard at the stupidity of the game. Saying 'better than mama' after opening a can - a.k.a. Mama doesn't know how to open a can [yo].

Cooking Mama Comebacks:

BETTER THAN MAMA'S MAMA
Tanga si Mama.
I owned Mama so many times.
Custard fail

We failed so much at custard. Why is it so effing hard to get it out of the mold??? After we got owned by the custard, Nigel owned us and got it done perfectly. Oo na, maangas ka Nigel :)) How is it he does it so perfectly? D8 It must be in the slinky wrist lol

Somewhere in between we had popcorn, more food and garlic bread. Then a few games of Lifeline on WarrioWare and then we went off to Mai's roof-deck-thing where Rboy-pride commenced with Al and Jasper, whilst the Sodium boys drowned us with overly corny jokes.

And then I went home at 3:30 - I walked - because my mom doesn't trust me with guys [yo] and came back this morning at 9:30 to say goodbye.

All in all, it was fun, and I'm rather glad that Al, Borgy and Mark came. |D

I feel proud ;D

2008-11-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

I now know who "Patrick GO" is due to IP tracking :P Unbelievably, it's a girl. Ahahahaha and I thought you were bad IRL.

BTW, the CFAwards discussion is OVER yo. My goal has been accomplished - the site is down and things are blowing over. I am still wondering why however, why Keziah Tan is not in the list o_o

Either way, thanks Iman, for being the bigger man and going down quietly -huggles-

Why guys are cavemen and why CFAwards is a waste of bandwith and webspace.

2008-11-10T19:45:00.016+08:00

We had this conversation awhile ago amidst lunch and continued somewhere into dismissal.

Basically it was full of bashing and criticism towards Iman's newest published blog, CFAwards, or Class Funds Awards.

Seriously, WTF?

I think I've mentioned somewhere here that posting rankings and opinion memes about other people we know IRL is not only degrading but detrimental to RL-relationships.

Not only do the people who make up the rankings sound like pompous jerks, they sound like pompous jerks with nothing better to do in their lives. Seriously, as much as I love you Iman (including all of your previous works up 'til now - The Corny Joke blog thing and all the other flashes you made), this is very below the belt.

Not only are you assigning NUMBERS to a person's persona, but you're making them feel bad about it. Let me quote from a certain xfacekillahcrossx's blog:

We recognized the top 20 females in the batch according to beauty.

Other random boys in the batch rated the girls from 1 - 5

1 - lowest

5 - highest

The average = total score/x (no. of raters)

The top 20 is shown

The other 54.... scrap

WTF IS THAT!?

We're not in the top 20 so we're scrap now? I mean, in all fairness, your blog in general is full of crap and misplaced opinions about others but this just takes the cake.

Let's cut the crap guys, if your real intentions were to give a scientific analysis of the demography of beauty in our batch you might as well have posted the whole list. Oh, you didn't want to hurt people's feelings? Too effing late.

Random Sampling daw.

Random sampling MY ASS. If I got my info correctly, this poll was conducted amongst backlobbers, dormers ~~and Gazebo-dwellers~~ - not that their opinion doesn't matter, I just don't think that it's the best way to base such a controversial ranking.

Not to mention how f*cking insensitive everyone's being about it.

Wag niyong iseryoso, ranking lang yan

Coz i dont find anything wrong with this thing.

Chill

It may not matter to cavemen like you, but girls have a much larger emotional spectrum and may be a little quirked at this.

Pikon ka lang kasi wala ka diyan

I'm not the only one who has problems with it - Even the girls on the actual list find it stupid.

In all fairness, I agree that yes, those people are "pretty" but how shallow can the guys of our batch get? Seriously, you're treating girls like cars or tv shows. Why not just put a price on us right now?

And WTH you guys, this ranking is the equivalent of ranking the guys in our batch by who you think has the largest penis. Because we'll never really know who's pretty inside and out - it's all just opinion, and putting numbers on that is sad.

Beauty is relative. Size is relative. You didn't directly state anything insulting, but in implying it, you just make it ten times worse.

EVERYONE WHO PARTICIPATED SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES You should know better D:

So what was the point of this ranking again?

Oh wait, it's pointless, rude and a waste of time, bandwith and webspace.

Go suck on that.

EDIT:
For people who say that they were "sincere" in their votes.
I don't have anything against your votes, opinions or sincerity. But the thing is, ranking people behind their backs, regardless of intention and sincerity is like treating them like material things and it's degrading. It would have helped if you had asked the objects of your ranking for permission first, but even then, it wouldn't change how incredibly rude it'd be.
You're ranking people's worth by narrow perception, and the fact that you participated without thinking is in itself something to look out for. You're still responsible, thus my saying: "EVERYONE WHO PARTICIPATED SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF THEMSELVES You should know better D:"

EDIT EDIT:
Borgybear added a reply to this post on his blog yesterday (which unfortunately i did not get to read until now). He rationalizes his thoughts much better than I do, partially because he isn't as hormonal and bipolar as I am -huggles- So to get both sides of the big mistake that is the CFAwards story, and a better look at a girl's POV (mine, not the girls in general) and a guy's POV (his, not the guys in general), go visit THIS LINK and read.

EDIT EDIT EDIT:
BEST POST EVER. READ HERE No blog says it better than this. Read the comments for a pretty good rebuttal.

Meme time :D

2008-11-08T21:49:00.002+08:00

Got bored. Stole this from LJ.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
♪ Ada
♪ Arjelle (Ariel)
♪ ArGEL PAGUPITAN (sadly)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
♪ Watch Ryuusei no Kizuna
♪ Listen to my iTunes
♪ Text

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
♪ I don't typ lyk dis
♪ I can tell the future @_@
♪ My life isn't as bad as I think it to be

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
♪ I'm naive, gullible and foolish.
♪ When I start talking, I can't stop.
♪ I'm KY.

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
♪ Zombies
♪ Dark alleyways and Walking outside in the dark
♪ Making a mistake I'll never be able to fix

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
♪ Shirt
♪ Pajama bottoms
♪ Underwear?

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
♪ Music
♪ Sleep
♪ Internet

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
♪ PC
♪ Celphone
♪ Wallet

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS/ARTISTS:
♪ Johnny and Associates Bands in general
♪ Our Lady Peace
♪ Amy Studt

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
♪ Jellybeans, Gummybears, Skittles
♪ Sketchbooking
♪ Talking to friends

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
♪ Tegami ~ to my 15-year-old self - Angela Aki
♪ Goodbye Days - YUI
♪ Shake It - Metro Station

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
♪ Learn how to bike
♪ Scuba Dive
♪ Play in the snow

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
♪ Not passing my FoodSci HW
♪ Being so naive
♪ Giving that person another chance

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
♪ Fun in general
♪ Love
♪ Responsibility and Commitment

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
♪ Friendship?
♪ Love?
♪ Fulfillment?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
♪ I am extremely annoyed by one of my classmates and/or groupmates
♪ Every 11:11 I make a selfish wish
♪ I'm okay

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
♪ Eat Blood
♪ Get an UNO in math
♪ See clearly

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
♪ The simplicity -sigh, first year-
♪ The Chinese culture
♪ Bukot-bukot with my dad

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
♪ Kawaii Headphones
♪ A new sketchbook
♪ Coloring Materials

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
♪ Drawing
♪ Photoshopping
♪ Fangirling

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
♪ Watch Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist
♪ Go Purikura-ing
♪ Talk to people

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
♪ Little Lulu
♪ Li Syaoran (Does anime count?)
♪ Pikachu

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
♪ Anthony
♪ Alex
♪ Michael

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
♪ Victoria
♪ Anneliese
♪ Kasandra

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY:
♪ No one in particular

Isabel is to Sara Bareilles as I am to Angela Aki.

2008-11-06T21:42:00.019+08:00

Isabel has Sara Bareilles as her Piano-songwriter guru and I have Angela Aki.

I've been listening to this non-stop for the past 3 hours (even while I was in the tub lol)

Angela Aki - Haikei ~Juugo no Kimi e~

A letter to my 15-year-old self

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata wa
Doko de nani wo shiteiru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai
Nayami no kanae ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchiake rareru darou

Ima makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo
Shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shika nai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima wo ikiteiru
Ima wo ikiteiru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni
Tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu
Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka
Toitsu dzukereeba mietekuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiaru keba ii no?
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite
Nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima ikiteiru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara
Osorezu ni anata no yume wo sodatete
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Makesou de nakisou de
Kieteshimaisou boku wa
Dare no kotoba wo shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa Makenai de nakanai de
Kieteshimaisou na toki wa
Jibun no koe wo shinjiarukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi mo
Sakete wa torenai keredo
Egao wo misete ima wo ikite yukou
Ima wo ikite yukou

Haikei kono tegami yondeiru anata ga
Shiawase na koto wo negaimasu...

Dear you, Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?

For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries I can't tell anyone

If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself

Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present

Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you

If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer

The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow

Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet presentjavascript:void(0)

There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing
La la la, la la la, la la la
Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing

Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?

Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice

No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness...

Ever since watching HSM3, I've been giving "serious" thought about my future. I really have no idea where I'm heading, and the anxiety of it all is causing me to break down. There are times when I feel that I have no future and I won't amount to anything in my life. People pull me one way, and my instincts pull me another. It's a confusing stage in life - 3rd Year, and it's not getting any easier.

And maybe that's why this song reassured me about where I'm going. My future, whether it turns out good or bad, is for me to decide. I should make my own decisions and make my own mistakes. My brother always said that when making your decisions, make sure that they are your own. That way, if you make a mistake, it is easier for you to accept it and learn rather than to blame it on others, and when you do succeed, you have the pleasant feeling of satisfaction for your own success - It's your success, and it's because of your choice, not someone else's.

Thanks Angela, for helping me understand now.

Wishlist

2008-11-06T19:54:00.008+08:00

I don't celebrate Christmas - I just wanted to make one so I can manage my budget to actually try to save up for them.

Buyables

Copic Markers - preferably the 72-piece set here, but the 36-color set will do as well.
Moleskine Sketchbook - may set me back 600-700 pesos. Must save.
To-Love-Ru and Zero no Tsukaima Figure - I saw one over at Trinoma *_*
Plain White 8-GB USB Flash Drive - I plan on designing it like a phone lol.
Checkered Hoodie or a Hoodie from The Closet Queen
Knee-high platform boots that fit
Purple Tin Pencil Case (2 layer) - I just want one.
Penguin Plushie
Funky Messenger Bag - Bright colors and standout print
Striped knee-high toe socks
Striped Arm and Leg warmers
Nail Polish - Yayayah colors or any of these
NEWS Winter Diamond Party Phone strap - like the one here.
Kawaii Headphones - T_T I want this one.
HSJ Shirt - I'd buy one myself, but the meet-ups are at Southmall.
My very own HELIUM PUPPY
Nendroid Figures LIKE THESE

Edibles

Samurai Ken Unagi Sushi
Mike and Ike - Tangy Twister
Crunch Milk Chocolate Stix
Strawberries
Karioka(sp?)
Jelly Belly Jellybeans
TGIF fries

Doables

Spraypaint Graffiti (illegally XD)
Garnet Outing (srsly guys, we need one)
Waterballoon/gun Fight
Date at Trelis |D
HSJ smut!fic
Sunset photography
Fireworks Display

Impossibles

Okamoto Keito
Yabu Kota
Brain USB - conceptualized by Estelle, so we can all just download memories into our PC.
The Power of Flight - So much less traffic
A prom date

Sigh, We all have everything we want, but it doesn't necessarily mean we get them.

I am now convinced Shinju is FAIL.

2008-11-05T22:37:00.004+08:00

Compared to THIS GIRL.

Let's look and compare now Shall we

Shinju

Filipino +
Can speak decent Japanese ++
Can sing "well" ++
Has squeaky H!P voice --
Cebuano accent -
Delusional ----(x100)
Thinks she's pretty - but isn't really --
Deletes comments that say that she isn't that good -
Faker (lol!) -
Dark film setting -
No actual background info -
Squeaky-voice song choice -

da2ndstar333

Filipino +
Can speak decent Japanese ++
Can SING VERY VERY VERY WELL. +++
Has Ayaka's ballad voice ++
No accent whatsoever ++
Has studied in Japan for one year +
NOT!delusional +++++
PRETTY! PRETTY! PRETTY! +
Actually translates her Japanese so people don't feel so inferior ++
Totally awesome film setting - You can see her mom! How pinoy, lol +
Awesome song choice ++

It's pretty obvious who I'm routing for. :D Shinju - Eat your heart out.

Dreams, Sports, Discoveries and Postponements

2008-11-04T19:29:00.002+08:00

Sigh, I had a wonderful dream before I woke up this morning. And by wonderful, I mean on the same level as this

For all intensive purposes, I'm keeping this part of my blogpost private. You can read it on my LJ where it's friend-locked.

Aside from that, nothing of great consequence happened today. The closest thing to anything exciting happening today would have to be P.E.

Softball.

I've never played softball before PE this year, and it's actually quite fun. I just need to make my glove more of an extension of my body. I always forget to grip when I catch the ball, so it ends up badly. Lol.

Despite my utter suckiness, sir had me pitch the simulation fly-balls for practice. In short, I made a fool of myself. Ahahaha I can't aim, and I got a headshot from Luna. Thanks Luna. As all people do, I got tired two-thirds along the way so Sir had Tei replace me. I ended up on the catchers' side for awhile until sir got tired and had me replace him.

So Tei and I ended up pitching people fly-balls. I don't know why Sir picked me - wth? Ahahahahaha. Tama nga pala sinasabi mga tao tungkol kay sir. Mahilig siya sa babae ;) JOKE LANG!. By that time I was already out of breath and dead tired (I have a lung problem) and my response time was lagging.

Thankfully we ended the session shortly after I subbed. Sir asked if my arm hurt, and in all honesty, it didn't. It was my lungs that "hurt". Lol. Heavy breathing and dehydration ensue. Sir said that I have "good form" when I throw. First thought that came up into my head was "SIR WAS CHECKING OUT MY FORM WTH????" Lol. Either way, it was fun, despite the tireDEAD!moments.

And a few minutes after that, I found some stuff out. Discoveries on how my friends behave and how accurate my predictions and prophecies are.

Postponement? Oh yeah, the postponement. My dad's not coming back tomorrow - he's coming back on Friday. -Sadface- I miss him so much. D:

Happy Birthday -Insert Never Ending List Here-

2008-11-03T19:46:00.002+08:00

Lol Today is.

NISHIKIDO RYO DAY!

it's also

JOSH MALAPIT DAY!

and

CARL UY DAY!

and let's not forget

DAVID KAYANAN DAY!

And quite coincidentally (Ma'am Bernal just has reeeaaaally good timing), it's also

JAPANESE CULTURE DAY!

I hope you all enjoyed today <3 I know I did :)

Happeningness

2008-11-01T10:26:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was fun :D

Lame entry. Sorry. Nakakatamad kasi magpost

Things to remember:

THE BOYS ARE BACK! - Lesbo Version
WTF everytime they start singing
Back Theater random applause
THE ARMS.
Timezone random drumming
DairyQueen Fail
Toystore Fail
Fun Fun Fun Church stuff.

:P Random. Everyone's changing their layouts. If I have time amma do mine. But I might just be too busy. Lol owell.

Filipino Tendencies - The Great and the Not So Great

2008-10-31T00:18:00.002+08:00

They say the Filipinos pride themselves in being hospitable, happy, Christian Life-oriented people who value close family ties. This leads me to ask where these values have gone. Have we Filipinos relied too much on our textbook-image whilst forgetting to actually apply it? That, to me, is one big problem right there.

It is a well known fact that even as little children, we are made study values and principles in school. We are taught about the “Filipino Image”. The Philippines is said to be a cultural melting pot, a Christian country amongst countries of Buddhists, Hindus and the lot. We are taught that Filipinos are naturally hospitable, happy and religious. This teaching however, eventually brainwashes us into thinking that we are so without having to try. This instills in us the common sentence “I’m Filipino, therefore I am…”

Yes, the Philippines is a cultural melting pot, and yet the struggle for dominance and feuds between races and religions prevail. What has happened to our Christian values? We are surrounded by corrupt officials, crimes and injustice. Little by little, relying on that textbook-image, we lose these principles and values that we take pride in as we get caught up in the strife for success. Where are our bragging rights then? After we squander, take advantage of others and waste what little resources we have left, it is as if we expect that image to still be there. The modern Filipino needs to see past that image and not just strive to maintain it, but to improve it. Else, we not only lose our image, but our dignity as well.

This however, is not the primary problem. This problem branches from other problems and at the same time gives way to many other problems within the Filipino being. In schools, private and public alike, it is often taught that the Filipino is happy-go-lucky. What exactly does it mean to be happy-go-lucky? Is it an endearing term pertaining to being positive and optimistic? Well, we are often taught so. To me however, this term is just a sugarcoated way of saying that the Filipino is cheerfully irresponsible, lazy, careless and apathetic. We may not often realize it, but in the simplest of things, the Filipino exhibits his happy-go-luckiness and it is not at all flattering. A simple candy wrapper not thrown in the proper place escalates into a landfill in less than a few years. Apathy is so prevalent at this point that even simple traffic schemes do not work. This is so because only a handful of people actually follow them. If we cannot even exhibit the willingness and discipline to follow laws for the good and benefit of the majority in the simplest of things – traffic and trash – where is our society headed? Has it all come down to this?

It is at this point that I accuse the modern Filipino of being selfish and self-righteous. Yes, the Filipino is happy, but only at the expense of others and at the benefit of one’s self. The Filipino is individualistic, to a point that it is no longer a term of praise. It is safe to say that close to nobody cares what happens to the majority of the country, as long as their well-being is intact.

It is now that I implore all of us, me included to strive for change. But when will that change come? Again, this leads to yet another Filipino tendency - Procrastination and Complacency.

We are all familiar with the term Manyana. Of all the Spanish values we had to cultivate within our being, it just had to be one of the most despicable and lazy values. What is Manyana? Simply put, it is putting things off until the last minute. I am sure I am not the only one who has noticed these awful Filipino tendencies and I am even surer that I am not the only one who wants to change. The Filipinos want to change. They are just too lazy to do so. In the end, we have so many ideals in mind, so many things we want to do and achieve, so much so that in the end, we are overwhelmed by the amount of work that our persona needs that we end up doing nothing at all. It is the irony of ambition.

This brings to the surface the intense need for the Filipinos to realize their mistakes and not to rely on a textbook-image as the foundation of our Filipino persona. We need to act and we need to act now. Let us not rely on our image. Let us not remain apathetic, and to the utmost degree, let us do so before it’s too late.

Last post before sleepy time :D

2008-10-27T23:26:00.004+08:00

Madali akong mapikon ngayon. SUPER.

I find myself getting annoyed at the simplest things - blog entries, people complaining, the way people write notes and people who want to do something, quote something related to that something and end up doing the complete opposite.

Nakakainis naman talaga diba?

I mean srsly ppl. Plz dnt typ lyk dis wen tryin 2 giv a moral 2 a story.

It's annoying.

Another thing.

All those IDEAL CLASS and OPINION about memes? They're not pleasant to read. If anything, they make people with overly large egos have even larger ones, hurt people who think they're close to you, and annoy the hell out of people who don't give a sh*t about your opinion. I mean, it's okay to do those memes about people you don't know IRL, but to know that you're writing about them on your blog with their NAMES on there makes it a bit inappropriate don't you think?

Okay, so maybe I'm a bit of a hypocrite, but at least I don't PRETEND to think people actually care and read about this stuff.

It's much easier to say it in Tagalog, I think.

At least kahit papaano, 'di ako feeling tulad mo.

It makes me mad when people blog about things that are past their boundaries, it really does - especially when they have no direct experience of what they're blogging about. Some people can't even get facts straight.

Also another thing that gets me. Inconsistent tenses in the same sentence. If you start with past tense, stick to it, unless appropriate to deviate. ~~Yes, I am a grammar Nazi. Sue me~~

One last thing. PLEASE DON'T POST EFFING SCHOOL REQUIREMENTS ON YOUR BLOGS AND NOT EVEN BOTHER TO TELL ANYBODY ELSE ABOUT IT. That's why we have an effing class blog . I hate not knowing about an assignment or quiz and then hearing from somebody the next day: "OH, IT WAS IN ****'S BLOG!". I get pissed at people who are so full of themselves so as to think people will flock to their blogs for requirements. If you're that desperate for blog traffic, go join a bloglisting or something.

It's one thing if you force yourself to write in English because you have a predominantly English-speaking audience, but to write in English and to write BAD, with no coherent train of thought is sad. I'd be better if you just wrote in Tagalog. SRSLY.

Ugh, my anger stems from one blog right now. I'm sorry. I'm very very pissed. This person has NO CLUE whatsoever about the etiquette of blogging and I'm sorry, but ANG FEELING NIYA. It's pitiful.

Yes, I am a hypocrite, but I feel much better now. ^_^

Ada is being contemplative - The world is ending.

2008-10-27T22:57:00.002+08:00

A little while ago, I was having a conversation with Joe about nothing in particular. I learned a lot from that conversation, and it was inspiring, really. *LOL, I SOUND LIKE MARZ!*

The point is, that he said something that really struck a chord. "If you like two people, pick the second person, because you wouldn't have fallen in love with him if you really loved the first."

And now everything seems more understandable now. It all makes sense.

And as if the God of bad timing was trying to mess with me, something happened. I left the front lob after that.

Still, it makes you think about everything that's passed and wonder if you ever really felt the way you thought you felt that time.

Lol, contemplative Ada mode off. :D

P.S. I finally got a softball fielder mit. My mom came close to buying me a catcher's mit for umpires. It's a real full grain leather Rawling's 12.5 glove with an autograph model of Ken Griffey Jr. (whoever that is).

We were originally supposed to buy a leatherette glove at Olympic World worth 500 pesos, but were referred to JB music and sports goods instead. We got this puppy for a solid 1400 and my mom didn't mind because she considered it a good "investment". How we're going to maximize the use of this really expensive glove without a baseball bat is beyond me. My mom puzzles me sometimes.

This blog needs more fangirling. D:

2008-10-26T22:53:00.005+08:00

Funny conversation:

Me: Only real men can do a peace sign and not look overly gay >:D
Gina: But they look gay right there D:
Me: I didn't say they didn't look gay. I said they didn't look OVERLY gay. There's a difference.

I just love this screencap. I've watched the MNSB making of more than 15 times already and it still hasn't gotten old. This might just be my favorite making of EVER. But I said that about UMP and DCT and YS, so the next making of might just outshine this one eventually LOL.

Oh how I wish I could brainwash people into loving them as much as I do. I hear stories of other of my fangirl friends making their friends fall in love with them by showing Making-ofs on their iPods. Too bad my iPod video is my pseudo-hard drive right now and is full to the brim D: (80 gigs of back up files D: on USB mode). I'm gearing my dad to buying me a new laptop. Preferably one of those cute tiny Toshiba ones with decent memory (I'm not a PC buff, I'm sorreh).

Either way, yeah. Just thought I'd flail more. Amma go rearrange my schedule, my meez and my polls now. This blog's sidebar is SO DEAD. D:

HERE, HAVE A KEITO

GET IT? Have a KEITO? Have a KITKAT? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

...

Nvm. =_=

IIIIIIIIIT'S SENTI TIME!

2008-10-25T19:50:00.002+08:00

Posting for no particular reason. It's just been SUCH. A. LONG. TIME. since I've seen this performance. I remember really rooting for Lacey to win during the finals just because of this song. Not to mention the song has great sentimental value to me.

I guess I was just reminded of a similar feeling. When I watch this video, this performance, it reminds me of when I used to skate. Needless to say, I never reached a high enuogh level to have a male partner, I once had that aspiration. Too bad 80% of the available male partners for skating are either ugly or gay.

Either way, the point is, this performance made me cry <3 If you know who you are, remember when we watched this together? Sigh.

Art Post - Yabu Kota

2008-10-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

Click to Full View

Title: Yabu Kota
Medium: Mongol #1
Time Taken: 2 hours
Comment: This one's a bit rougher and dirtier than the other two because I ran out of sketchbook to draw on, thus leading me to use low-quality table napkin-like paper that I found on the floor. Excuse the crudeness, and sorry, I made Yabu's neck too long D: This one's from an older scan. If I'm not mistaken it's June Duet? Again, I choose pieces to draw based on clothes. I love drawing clothes <3 The texture didn't come out so well on this one, again, because of the crappy paper. Sorreh =_=

Bouts of depression are dangerous to your health.

2008-10-23T22:18:00.003+08:00

That person should come with that label stapled to his forehead, just to remind me whenever I see him.

Personal post here. Obviously, friends only.

It's like the school is telling me not to try anymore.

2008-10-23T19:32:00.003+08:00

Little by little, no matter how hard I try, and believe me, I've been trying, my grades have been slipping. My outlook on school life as of now is amazingly different that it used to be when I was in first year.

In first year, I'd cry if I'd get anything lower than 1.5 (seriously, wtf?). I was a very self-reliant person, doing most group works by myself for fear that somebody would perform lower than my standards (actually, I'm still sorta like that now). I was very very patient with my teachers - I had many that I disliked, but then I would always end up siding with them, saying that a teacher-student relationship and mutual understanding is needed in order to be conducive to learning. I even told people to give MA'AM BELTRAN a chance, which is quite amazing, even for me.

But dude, this just effing takes the cake.

I was okay when Sir Cip dartboarded, because at least he dartboarded well. But seriously, giving me a 2.00 on an elocution piece? WTF? WTF IS THAT??? People will definitely say I'm an ass and mayabang after this one, but I'm CERTAIN my speech deserved at LEAST a 1.5. I feel insulted.

She only remembers her favorites. This pisses me off to the highest degree.

Screw school. Screw grades. Screw YOU unfair grader.

(It'd be awesome if I could make this my elocution piece. THINK HOW PASSIONATE I'D BE.) I need to vent.

Art Post - Inoo Kei

2008-10-23T00:35:00.001+08:00

Click to Full View

Title: Inoo Kei
Medium: Mongol #1
Time Taken: 4.5 hours
Comment: Lol, boredom once again. Still from November Potato. I love that shoot, proably cuz of the clothes. Either way, the shirt took so long, it made my head hurt. I'm not really very satisfied with this one. I made Inoo's eyes too small and his hair too curly. In the end, I think it looks more like Keito than Inoo. Please forgive me for that D: Thanks for all the positive comments :P I'm running out of things to draw. LOL. Any recommendations? Please comment! :P

Art Post - Chinen Yuri

2008-10-21T21:34:00.001+08:00

School's pretty dull these days, and all the teachers are too lazy to give us any assignments yet, so I'm taking advantage of this to post some art. I was supposed to be doing STR when Chinen's Picture from November Potato caught my interest :P So knowing me, instead of doing STR I started drawing.

This work is based on the scan, basically Chinen in my style of drawing. People hate my style of drawing. You see, it's the BORDERLINE between anime and realism. People say my work is either too real-looking or too anime-looking and I end up pleasing nobody. Ohwell.

Hope I did Chinen justice in this one :))

Please, do comment.

Click to Full View

Title: Chinen Yuri
Medium: MAGIC PENCIL FTW!
Time Taken: 4 hours
Comment: Somehow, I ended up making him look a lot older than he's supposed to look, and the crease lines of his clothes are too obvious :)) Sorry, Magic Pencil lang kasi. My scanner's acting up, I don't know why the scan's so choppy :)) Please comment! :P

Paki-usap lang.

2008-10-19T20:48:00.003+08:00

Please don't talk to me about GOD tomorrow, today, or any day 3 months from now.

I'm not in the mood

Sample Custom Work 2

2008-10-13T01:51:00.005+08:00

This time it's for the Pota Blog. I just finished it now and it had the ROTATING HEADER script, and as of now I have 4 different headers up on the test blog site. I don't know the username and PW of our class blog (pitiful, I know), So I haven't installed it yet.

The HOME link on the Test Blog leads to our class blog. Refresh to see all 4 headers.

Here's a preview of the site on the GINO ARELLANO header.
PLEASE NOTE: I haven't debugged for IE yet. I plan on doing that tomorrow, so It might look horrible on IE. Not sure, haven't checked. If it does suck on IE, please tell me and I shall get right to work.

Click on the preview to go to the preview site.

If I had charged for this site (instead of doing it for free) it would have been 265 pesos. Not that bad :P For a fully customized work with all the perks, it would cost about 350. :P

Now all I have to do is finish my Art commissions and the layout of my blog and I've crossed out half of my list in two days. :) That leaves me seven days to try to finish everything else.

Pretty awesome if you ask me.

Sample Custom Work

2008-10-12T00:46:00.005+08:00

So I just finish my first blog commission from Jejo Bongat. If you're Jejo, please contact me ASAP to receive the code and installing instructions.

Preview

Please click the preview for a blog example of the layout

This blog costs 190 pesos :)

I will update that same link with a different layout plus other customized layouts within a few days, so please check back. :)

If you found my work pleasing and would like to order your own blog, please refer to this post.

Cramming's not so bad, epecially if you have someone to do it with.

2008-10-11T11:28:00.002+08:00

So last Thursday night [and part of Friday morning], I decided to cram our Filipino poems by myself. Well, not really. Goma was there to help as my translater as well. When Goma had to go to sleep, there were Joe and Mark to help translate, and for that, you three are teh awesomeness and you all get special PIMPAGE on this post.

And now for the finished product... (Sorry for it's crappiness, I'm just happy and proud that we finished LOL)

Hinahanap-hanap Kita

Noong bata pa ako’y pangarap kong lumipad
Sa suporta ng nanay sa aking hinahangad.
Nang siya’y namatay ako’y naudyok
Na lisanin ang bayang sa aki’y kumupkop.

Ang tatay ko’y ni minsay nakapiling,
Lahat ng hirap sa kanya’y ibabaling.
Iniwan niya kami nang ako’y musmos pa.
Hanggang sa larawan ko lang siya nakikita.

Tatlong taon na, ako’y nabubuhay na mag-isa
At natatandaan ko pa rin ang sinabi ng ina.
“Huwag mong pakawalan ang bawat pagkakataon.
Ang paninisi limutin, ang galit ibaon”.

Ang bawat pagkakataon, ay akin ngang sinamantala.
Ngunit ang galit sa tatay ay ‘di humuhupa.
Kasalanan ng ama’y hindi mabibitawan.
Kanyang pagtakwil ay walang kapatawaran.

Bagaman ganyan ang aking naranasan,
Hindi sa walang saysay ang aking pinagdaanan.
Sa may himpapawid, sa may dakilang sasakyan,
Ako’y naglilngkod sa mga nangangailangan.

Oo, ako’y isang tagapaglingkod.
Lumilipad at ngayo’y sumusugod.
Sa aking mga lakbay, ako’y nakakakita.
Unti-unting nagmamasid at nakakaunawa.

May ilang mga taong karaniwang lumalakbay.
At sa aking biyahe ay laging sumasabay.
Nariyan ang mangangalakal, gahamang nagnenegosyo.
Walang ibang ginagawa kundi umaasenso.

Kahit sa buhay, siya’y lahat maliban sa matuwid,
Pabor ng tadhana, kayamanan sa kanya’y hinahatid.
Kahit anong gusto niya’y siguradong nakakamit.
Pera, bagay o lupa, malaki man o maliit.

Bawat biyahe ay iba ang kanyang kasama,
Babaeng matangkad, payat at kung sinu-sino pa.
Subalit isang beses ko pa lang siya nakikita
Na walang kabit at ang kasama’y asawa.

Ganyan na siguro ang pamumuhay ng tatay ko.
Pamilya’y nakalimutan at isang palikero.
Nilapitan ko ang lalaki at ang pagkai’y hinain.
Bigla niya akong hinawakan na may masamang tingin.

Agad akong umiwas sa kanyang mga pakay.
At sa likod ng mga kurtina nalang naghintay.
Ako’y tinawagan muli ng isa sa mga pasahero.
At sa laking ginhawa, hindi ang babaero.

Ako’y lumapit sa pasaherong tumawag sa akin,
At humingi siya ng dyaryo upang ito’y basahin.
Sa unang tingin pa lamang ay nakilala ko na siya.
Siya’y isang OFW, bumabyaheng mag-isa.

Marami ang mga taong sa ibang bansa nagtatrabaho.
Isa lamang siya sa libu-libong mga ito.
Binigay ko sa kanya ang hiningi niyang dyaryo,
At tinanong ko sa kanya kung saan siya patungo.

Sa may Visayas pa siya nakaugnay,
Pumunta sa Istados Unidos upang maghanapbuhay.
Iniwan ang anak at ang kanyang asawa.
Ngunit hanggang ngayon ay tapat sa kanila.

Iniwan ko na siya at hinayaang magbasa,
At pag-alis ko ay bigla kong naalala.
Ang ina ko’y may ganyang lakas rin,
Na sumikap na magtrabaho upang ako’y pakainin.

Ang isang munting luha ay lumabas sa aking mata,
Patuloy na dumaloy, isa, dalawa at tatlo pa.
Hindi na tumigil ang aking pag-iyak.
Hindi ko mapigilan ang kanilang pagbagsak.

Ang tatlong taong paghiyaw na nakakulong sa aking puso,
Ngayo’y lumabas sa ganitong dako.
Nainis at nahiya ako sa aking sarili,
Lahat ng tao nakatingin, nagtataka sa aking paggawi.

Ang isang tao, isang dayuhan sa tabi ko,
Hinawakan ang aking bisig at ako’y pinaupo.
Tumingin ako sa kanya at naghanap ng pagtatangi,
Ngunit wala akong nasumpungan kundi ang kanyang ngiti.

Hinayaan niya akong umiyak sa tabi niya,
Sabay nagkukwento tungkol sa hinahanap niyang pamilya.
Ilang taon na daw ang lumipas na hindi sila nagkikita,
At ngayo’y bumabalik sa pag-asang sila’y makasama.

Nagkwento siya tungkol sa kanyang pagkakamali.
Na iniwan ang pamilya, isip-isip lang ang kanyang sarili.
Sa aking isipan ay ako’y nagtaka,
Kung bakit ako ang kinakausap niya.

Naglabas siya ng isang larawan mula sa kanyang pitaka.
Ipinakita ito sa akin, at ako’y nabigla.
Isang pamilyang masayang nagtatawanan
Pamilyang nagkukwentuhan at kumakain sa hapag-kainan.

Sa una ay hindi ko maisip kung saan ko ito dating nakita.
Ngunit unti-unting bumalik sa akin ang mga alaala.
Ang batang iyon, ang ina at ang ama,
Ang bahay, ang mesa at ang mga dilaw na silya.

Agad akong tumayo at nagtago uli sa mga kurtina.
Ang dayuhang iyon, ama ko siya.
Sa mga panahong iyon, hindi ako makapasiya,
Kung ako’y dapat magalit o kung ako’y dapat magsaya.

Unti-unti kong naunawaan, na hindi talaga ako galit.
Ako’y kulang lang sa pagmamahal at pagmamalasakit.
Sa mga taong dumaan sa aking buhay,
Ang kulang sa akin ang piling ng tatay.

Pinasiya kong bumalik at ipaliwanag ang aking natanto,
Ngunit nariyan na siya pagtalikod ko.
Yinakapan niya ako at binulong sa aking taenga,
“Anak, hinahanap-hanap kita.”

My family's scary sometimes

2008-10-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

Just a week after my dad leaves and our family is already an emotional wreck.

My brother lost his laptop at UP yesterday but says "His friend picked it up and it'll be back with him soon".

That's the same thing he said about the last 20 other things he's lost and guess what? They never did come back.

So at 8:00 in the morning, my mom violently knocked on his door and asked him why he was in bed while instead he should be looking for his laptop over at UP. He reasoned that he was tired and had diarrhea (that's his excuse for everything D: ). My mom blew a fuse and screamed a lot of unintelligible crap. At least it was unintelligible to me - I was in my room, covering my head with my pillow and wishing for the little spat to be over.

Now both of them were screaming.

15 minutes after, the screaming stopped and there was a slam of the door.

I went back to sleep, praying to God that when I woke up the whole thing'd be resolved.

By 10, however, the screaming resumed. This time at much higher levels. Thank God I had 2 pillows, a comforter and Gumma-Bear to act as my Sound Barrage. There was stomping and the familiar BANG!, meaning my brother either punched the wall again (he's done this so many times and each time we'd have to repaint the wall), or threw something at my mom. Since there was a bang, I assumed my mom was fine.

This has happened so many times before anyway.

So blah. I'm up now. I haven't had breakfast, and I haven't left my room. I don't want to, I'm afraid D:

Sigh, the sembreak's already started and already I know it's gonna end up pretty sucky.

FANDOM I'VE MISSED YOU.

2008-10-10T21:22:00.007+08:00

Last Thursday, I started prepping for my big fandom comeback, because recently I've been neglecting my boys *huggles Keito* I'VE MISSED YOU

So the first thing I did was update myself with Kami-chan's blog, because we all know he's the awesomest person ever.

That day I found out HSJ is as awesome as ever, Chinen's voice is breaking, Keito's hair just keeps getting better and better, Takaki had an awesome haircut, Yamada and Chinen got their hair done and a whole lot of other crap that seems so useless now, but I hold them so close to my heart.

I also learned about the success of YOUR SEED, whose PV I love to death, especially with its tie-in with Kung Fu Panda. Also Scrap Teacher, with Yamajimachioka (Yamada, Nakajima, Chinen and Arioka). >_< I need a better namesquish ~~P.S. Chinen looks like Matsujun in the picture :))~~. I also found that HSJ would be releasing yet ANOTHER single, whose PV just arrived today.

Teenage Angst...

It's never looked so hot before. I give it a two thumbs up. This is awesome, and Chinen's haircut makes me *_*. Keito and Ryutaro need more love. D:

Owell, I've caught up to my HSJ Fandom, now there's Arashi and NEWS, who are releasing a single and an album respectively. Now to put some of my scouting powers to use. I NEED MORE INFO.

Don't worry, I'll write about something UN-fandom-related later, or tomorrow. It depends.

But the point is -

JAPAN, I've missed you <3

F*CK THIS IS GONNA GIVE ME NIGHTMARES.

2008-10-07T01:25:00.002+08:00

ZOMBIES DOING YOGA

The reason zombies run so fast now is because they do YOGA! x_X

Procrastination is an art.

2008-10-05T18:14:00.005+08:00

So today, instead of actually studying for the impending doom that are the perios this week, I have spending my time "productively" completing one of my long postponed projects.

This is the initial sketch that I drew whilst taking a break from chem a few days ago. I decided to color it in today because as always tinatamad ako mag-aral, which really isn't very good work ethic, considering my grades are sucky as they are, but owell.

This is what I've completed so far.

Not my best, but pretty good considering I've only been using my mouse (My dad accidentally threw away my Tablet stylus, so it'll be a month before a new one's delivered). I suck with clothing detail, so excuse the pitiful excuse for detail. I figured adding texture would be enough, but obviously, it's not working very well.

I'm having a bit of a problem as to what to do for her bottom clothing. Should it be seethrough or not? x_x So I'm saving that for later. Right now I'm working on the background while doing Chemistry problems on gas laws and Colligative properties. MULTITASKING FTW!

Tell me what you think. I should probably put up a gallery section for all my artwork on the sidebar. That should probably be my next poll question :P

Blog Layout Order Form

2008-10-04T17:16:00.010+08:00

I've been having a hard time managing the specs of some requested layouts, so I'll be asking anybody who wants a custom layout to please fill up this form on NOTEPAD and send to adahikari@yahoo.com. For extra requests/specs/consultation that you want, it'd be best if you add me on YM, adahikari so we can talk directly.

Basic Ordering Form for Custom Layouts:

Bloghost: (Livejournal, Blogspot, etc)

Blog Title: The title you want on the header
Blog URL: For home links
Contact #:
Email:

Basic layout:
Header - Sidebar - Content - Sidebar (120)
Header - Sidebar - Content (100)
Header - Content - Sidebar (100)
Header - Topbar - Content (100)
Header - content (50)
Other: please specify (price depends on effort)

Sections on sidebar: (Specify name of each section and if you want a special graphic header for each.)
Generic Image Headers (50, >7; 75 <7)
Specialized Image Header per section (10 per header)
Text headers (free)

Color Scheme:

Theme:
this is so I can find any stock images I may need for the layout
(Price depends on effort to find stock images)

Any image requests to be on graphics:
If you already have stock images you want me to use, that'd be awesome.

Background Specifications:
Patterned Background (5)
Image Background (10)
Color Background (free)

repeating, fixed, image on bottom right, etc etc.

Browser compatibility: I usually do FF compatible sites. Extra 10 pesos to add browser compatibility

Navigation:
Image Navigation (10 pesos per link)
Image Navigation with hover (15 pesos per link) example: here
Text navigation (free)

Other special requests:

Any Specific Deadline: Negotiable, extra cost for rushed commission

Optional Blog Aspects
Lovebar A lovebar is a graphic that shows your interests, ex. Jonas Brothers (20)
LJ Friends Only Banner (20)
Signature Bar for forums (20)
LJ Icon (10)
Extra header (20 per header)
Rotating headers (15)
Link Me Button 88x30 (10)
LJ Moodtheme (200)
LJ minicons (2 per icon)

I will be adding sample works here on my site as soon as the perios are over, most likely during sembreak. Please be patient with your orders as most of the time, they pile up and I can't do anything about it.

PAYMENT METHOD:
For now, the layout request system is available only to people I know IRL. I simply will not release the HTML code until you have paid. Please and thanks :D

Current Line-up:
~~Jejo Bongat~~
Gina Marquez

Gomenasai

2008-10-04T15:06:00.002+08:00

I've been so Japan-deprived these past few months. Most probably because people don't accept me and my fandom (view poll). -sadface-

So this is the closest I can get to posting something Japanese without being run over by a car driven by one of my anti-jap readers :))

GOMENASAI - t.a.t.u.

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Wasn't one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed

Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomenasai, for everything
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomenasai, I let you down
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

I remember when everybody was still into T.a.t.u. Remember Not Gonna Get Us and All About Us? No, they're not lesbians. Get over it.

Sigh, I miss the 90's D:

Joining the Bandwagon

2008-10-02T22:28:00.006+08:00

I remember these tests from first year. I still have my old test that I created when I was in first year. Sad, really :))

Why don't we all have a go? No harm in trying, right?

And even if we aren't close, try answering. I want to see how all of you score, based on your opinion of me ;)

And if you didn't score well, we can try to get closer :D Nothing like getting a few new friends :D

And in other news:

I'm a little short on money right now, so I'm thinking of doing stuff for some extra cash. Any recommendations? My mom says I should just save, but I'm already starving myself as it is (which actually isn't a bad thing, since I'm trying to lose weight anyway, but it can't be healthy)

I'm thinking either selling some of my digital art, doing commissions, or custom layouts for blogs.

So help me out here, WOULD YOU PAY TO HAVE ME MAKE YOU A BLOG LAYOUT? D:?

Relationships and Nostalgia

2008-10-01T22:21:00.002+08:00

Remember when I mentioned a convo with someone I hadn't talked to in a long while? It turned out very unpleasant, and I've given up.

I saw somebody else online today. I hadn't talked to him in 2 years. I decided to give it another try, half-thinking I'd get the same results as the last convo. So as I typed up the first few words, you can understand why there was some hesitation.

But what surprised me is that he hadn't changed at all. He was the same sweet guy he was 2 years ago, just 8 inches taller.

God, you have no idea how relieved I was. We talked for awhile. It was so amazingly fun talking to him. So many memories.

I invited him to the fair. He said he might not be able to come because of a volleyball game but he said he'd try. I was happy. Then he said he was moving to Canada.

WTF CANADA???

Why???? D:

I genuinely felt bad. After such a wonderful "reunion", being told he'd be leaving sometime in March didn't really give me the kind of reinforcement I was looking for. I'm really hoping I'll get to see him before he leaves. Even though we weren't close, he was still a friend.

So before he said goodbye (he had to go to sleep early, he has school tomorrow), I made him promise to invite me to his wedding and to never change his YM, even when he moves to Canada.

Sigh, maybe my life isn't so sucky after all.

Virus Update

2008-10-01T13:28:00.006+08:00

To put is simply, nothing's quite working. I've resorted to DANIWEB once again, where real experts can handle the problem for me. I have VIRUS ALERT! popping up everywhere at this point - on YM, my taskbar, EVERYWHERE. This is whack.

Only problem is I can't download directly from the net. Save As doesn't work for me anymore, so I have to have people download the files for me and send them via YM. There's no other way, considering I don't have a different computer to save the files on, and even if I did, I'd risk infecting the other computer, so this is as good as it gets.

I've posted my HijackThis log onto the forums and am conducting my Malwarebytes' Scan. Hopefull I'll be able to fix this problem by today.

That aside, I have Metro Station's SHAKE IT stuck in my head. Click here to view the vid, and click Watch in High Quality for better viewing. I can't post the vid here on my blog directly because all vids have disabled embeddding on sites, so if you want to have a listen you have to do it over at YouTube.

Metro Station > Miley Cyrus

I don't care if Trace is Miley's half brother. The song is just too catchy x_x. So right now, this is on loop on my VIRUS FIGHTING soundtrack. In line with my current situation, I've changed my Meez Status Webcam appropriately. MATRIX TIME!

EDIT:
VIRUS SUCCESSFULLY TAKEN CARE OF!

THANK YOU MALWAREBYTES AND DANIWEB!

my life sucks

2008-10-01T00:58:00.002+08:00

I've been infected with a very very very smart virus. I can't excess my task manager or regedit. I can't even run anything. My Computer and C Drive are inaccessible.

I've resorted daniweb once again. Waiting for replies and constantly redoing HijackThis logs.

HELP ME

And just awhile ago, I had a very very unpleasant conversation with someone I've missed for a long time. A small invitation to the fair turned into a fight. I hate it.

I've suffered damage mentally, emotionally and now my hard drive has to pay the price.

Tell me this ISN'T the worst day of my life.

Maybe I'm overreacting.

Actually, I am.

But my PC's going to be dead by tomorrow if I don't fix this.

I'm in tears right now. Damn this day.

The ROOF! The ROOF! The ROOF is on FIRE!

2008-09-30T07:26:00.007+08:00

Imagine my surprise when I woke up, took a bath, ate breakfast, dried my hair and dressed up, only to find that I had received 6 messages saying that classes today were suspended due to a fire in the 2nd Floor SHB.

How ironic.

Some say it was the Reg, some say it was the Faculty Room, but either way, Perio's moved to Thursday. And in my head, I'm wondering. If any of those two rooms were on fire, wouldn't that mean the burning of important documents like test papers, quizzes and GRADES?

I wouldn't be surprised if the teachers had to Sir Cip their way out of this for 2nd quarter. I mean, if all the basis for our grades were cast into flames, why repeat a whole 2nd quarter's worth of calculations and projects, right?

And if the reg had indeed been on fire, wouldn't our perio questionnaires have been burned along with it? That'd be awesome. ~~Yes, I know, I'm a horrible person~~

All this occurring a month before the exchange students arrive sort of makes sense to me. It's like the soul of Pisay is saying: STAY AWAY. YOU ARE ENTERING THE FIERY GATES OF HELL!

But of course, that's just my imagination running wild.

As for me, I intend on using half the day to catch up on much needed sleep and half the day to study for all my other subjects. Tomorrow will be dedicated to all my projects and requirements.

Please pray for anyone who might have been caught in the blaze, despite being elated as to the postponement of our perio. :)

EDIT:
Apparently, classes are suspended the entire week. Had it been that bad? If it was that bad, then I can imagine the more than a million pesos worth of property going into flames.

Let's start with the library, a mere 2 or 3 meters away from the Humanities Faculty. Imagine all the hard work and effort of past Pisay students on their STR projects - burnt. Not to mention the periodical section, with decades worth of science based magazines - New Scientist, TIME, etc etc. That might be gone as well. And still, the computers. Those newly shipped in and donated by GLOBE. Do you think those burst into flames as well? I wonder if all the other books caught on fire as well. I'm willing to bet our library, though small and humble, might be the biggest casualty of all.

And then there's the property office. A few steps away from the registrar, where the fire was said to spread. The property office, though partially empty due to all the scholar's books being released, still contains a big amount of books, hardbound and softbound, imported from the U.S. All that bursting into flames is such a waste.

And let's go further and include the lockers, because we all know a lot of people's lockers are situated in the 2nd floor. I pity the people who took no care as to grab their books for studying. They might have had the biggest loss of all.

So aside from documents being burnt, scholarship statuses, report cards, attendance folders, not to mention grades, we might have a lot of other things to worry about.

That is, if the fire was as huge as I had imagined, for once again, I am speculating - letting my imagination run wild and assuming the worst.

Sometimes it's better that way. So when you come back and see nothing's wrong, it's a relief.

But still, let us all hope that the damage wasn't that widespread and that all our precious books, STR resources, and COMPUTERS did not have to pay the price.

EDIT EDIT:
For the record, from Sir Joey who was on the scene: Registrar completely undamaged. The fire was localized in the row of cubicles where Maam Aguila's and Sir Vlad's cubes were is completely obliterated. Cubicles near the window are wet but undamaged. Damage to teachers' records...that's a different story. Some teachers left their records, others didn't. Consult individual teachers. What's important is the perio is pushing through next week: Mon-Tue-Wed. Same schedule.

P.S
PRAY FOR NATHAN. He has dengue right now and we all want him to come back healthy and safe. I, especially.

Last Minute Distraction

2008-09-29T23:00:00.003+08:00

I SO WANT TO WATCH THIS

Click to go on YouTube for HQ video

Besides the fact that I love the cast, it looks like an amusing movie. Anyone wanna go see it with me? Although it's probably gonna reach Theaters in the Phil in 2009 x_x

Trust (no, not the condom)

2008-09-29T19:48:00.011+08:00

Woohoo, more rambling about myself and observations in life. I hope you're not tired yet.

Well, today was interesting. Despite being the day right before the first day of perio, things were pretty un-hectic. Practically all our classes today were breaks. Health was a "break". Bio was a "break". Comsci was a "break", and then there was homeroom.

Homeroom was a BREAK in a whole new sense.

Sir Chuckie set up a homeroom activity for the whole class. An EGG TOSS.

The activity was designed to build "trust" within a unit, feeling free enough to throw the egg and depend on your partner to catch it. In other words, we were all screwed.

My partner was Goma. The day before, I got him as a last minute partner for the toss. The conversation in itself made me laugh.

ada: crap wala akong partner/egg
Jose Maria Hizon: ha?
Jose Maria Hizon: ako nga rin e
Jose Maria Hizon: tayo na?
ada: :))

So yeah, I ended up tossing eggs with Goma. No biggy. We didn't last long, but it was fine. At least the egg didn't burst into one of our faces. I'm thankful for that.

THANKS GOMA :D

As the game went on, more and more casualties came into focus and our class was the perfect picture of what scholars would look like if they were mixed into custard batter, with added LABGOWNS! Needless to say, some of the eggs weren't as fresh as they were thought to be and unavoidably, some pairs had to pay the price.

The most picture-perfect casualties had to be Cat's and Arvin's. It didn't help that Cat's labgown was Gorio's. In the end, she had to change into a t-shirt 3 sizes larger than hers. I'm amazed at how stylish she can look in such an oversized shirt. Prettiness pays.

As for Arvin - Despite being in one of the two last teams standing (Tei-Arvin, Nixxx-Luna), the egg had to fall eventually, and as all things that go must up come down. The egg came down alright - Right into Avin's head.

We laughed our butts off. Hey, at least you can say his hair got a little boost of protein. Eggs are good for the hair, so it wasn't much of a problem. Nothing a bit of shampoo from the Coop couldn't fix.

At the end of it all, Luna and Nixxx's team stood triumphant- the Egg Tossers of the year! And all in all, we had two major casualties, lots of injuries and an amazing Homeroom class. While waiting for the bell to ring, we resorted to amusing ourselves with basketball/Frisbee and watching Rb playing their HR games.

The period after, Sir Manoop dismissed us right after asking for our contact numbers and the period after that, Ma'am Bernal was nowhere to be seen.

As you can see, it was a very inconsequential day.

P.S. Look what I got as a pasalubong from Goma!

Quite appropriately, Isabel suggested I name it GOMA-BEAR (a twist of Gummy-bear). So now I have Goma-bear to add to my overflowing bed of nighttime stuffed toys. Joy <3

Resolutions and Pregnancy Tests

2008-09-28T18:49:00.006+08:00

So judging by my poll, which is still ongoing btw (Vote if you haven't yet -->), people want me to write more about my life and less shallow things.

That's pretty hard.

I've said time and time and again that this blog wasn't put up for the purpose of writing personal entries about crushes, life and dysfunctional families. I'm not one of those people who enjoy writing about themselves and about their day to day lives. I find it troublesome, boring and in most cases, people tend to judge you and think they know all about your life just by reading your blog.

I hate that.

Even I find myself thinking this way when reading other people's blogs. I read them and think 'How self-centered is this person? The whole world doesn't revolve around him/her.' Sometimes I even find it sad that all people have to write is every minuscule thing that happens in their lives, but I guess in some sense, it's interesting.

Sometimes, I even think what they write is stupid, I'll be honest. Sometimes I laugh at how lovesick people can be and roll my eyes, forgetting that I too can be that way. But the point is, I'm not fond of blog entries like those. At least not blog entries like those EVERYDAY. So excuse my lack of actual content and concrete thoughts. I'm not making sense anymore :P

But yeah, I think we've established that I'm not a deep person, and I'm not one who likes to put her life out there for everyone to read (at least not anymore), so to be able to fulfill your wishes for more insightful and thought provoking posts and more ME-related posts, I'll have to stretch and get away from my comfort zone.

Let's give it a try right now.

So today, right after church, I hurried back home, got changed and sped to PSHS with my brother. We were going 140 on Commonwealth. I'm used to this kind of driving. Unfortunately, my classmates weren't.

When we got to Pisay, my brother was being his usual impatient self. You can imagine now, why he's such a wreckless driver. Either way, when we got there, only Shua was at the front lob. I for one, was pissed, because just a minute before, Tei had texted me that they were there already. ~~Ugh, the bastards lol.~~

When we finally gathered Tei, Luna and Shua, my brother sped off, at his usual 140. It was amusing hearing the comments from the back.

Luna: Grabe, ambagal ah.

I just laughed. On our way out of Agham road, we ran into a guard facilitating the pedestrians. Despite having tried to "stop" our car (which by then was impossible, considering we were going so fast), the guard just ran away when we drove toward him, head on at 140. We all laughed.

My brother was a very good driver. He could weave through anything with his Subaru. Apparently, my classmates thought he was awesome as well, because right after the slight scare and adrenalin rush, they said that it was like being in a movie - a real thrillride, just like riding the Space Shuttle over at Enchanted.

That aside, I still haven't told you the reason as to our meeting at Pisay, and the reason we had to speed over to Courtney's house ASAP.

We were there for Health.

Due to unfortunate circumstances, we had yet to start our baby book project. No biggy, all we had to do was canvas. So when we got over to Courtney's, we finalized our "shopping list" for childbirth and baby-raising before picking up Elvis and hopping on a taxi for SM Megamall. Courtney couldn't join us, she was under house-arrest.

Of course, nobody could go baby shopping on an empty stomach, so our first stop after hitting SM was KFC. Mmmm, KFC. 'Nuff said.

A few minutes later, after purchasing some scrapbooking material, an album and a few other pieces of crap from National, we were actually canvasing and making progress. A short visit to Enfant here, and a visit to Chicco there. People were staring at us, wondering why such young students were Baby-shopping. Elvis and I took turns making them guffaw by replying to their stares with a smile, a rub on the tummy and a soft voice: "three months :)"

We'd burst right into laughter right after that and then our act would crumble and all the salesladies/men we'd encountered would ask us what school we were from. Curse PSHS for giving us assignments impossible to complete.

That wasn't the worst part though. Along the way, we had to pass by the ladies' lingerie department to look for maternity bras and nursing pads. The boys went crazy.

And if you thought that was bad, just wait until we dropped by Watson's to canvas for PREGNANCY TESTS.

I could imagine it vividly in my head. A scene much like the one at the opening of Juno. I cried a little inside.

Thank God Elvis offered to ask the prices for me. I could just imagine the look on the cashier's face if I asked how much a pregnancy test was. x_x

Apparently, pregnancy tests are very cheap. Go ahead and buy one and see for yourself ;)

The rest of the day was pretty tame after that.

I took a nap after we got back to Courtney's house and a few minutes later we got back to work and played Truth or Truth to pass the time.

Ah, good times.

And now I'm here, contemplating whether or not I've told my audience too much, staring at this big block of text and wincing, thinking what an eyesore it is to be put first on my blog page.

Please tell me I did a good job on my first actual personal entry.

If I didn't, I'd probably die and my baby wouldn't like that now, would he? lol

Sound Check

2008-09-27T19:02:00.003+08:00

I'm taking a break from the depressing novel that is The Kitchen God's Wife. Usually I have a greater affinity to High School Reading Assignments and usually I appreciate them more. But reading Amy Tan's work just makes me depressed, especially considering how well acquainted I am with Chinese culture. I may not be one to speak, but I know enough at least.

My poll is still ongoing and will be closed come Wednesday, so please vote when you can. --->

That aside, I've had the Plain White T's on loop for some time now. Why isn't anybody fangirling/fanboying them? They're awesome.

It looks better high-quality, so go watch it on YouTube.

Either way, this song's been on my top-playlist for a long time. I remember a few weeks ago, teasing Marz with this song.

"I don't know what this girl was after, she's a natural - natural disaster~"

What can I say? I have very unusual friends. If you know her IRL, you'll probably know why.

That's it for my break. I have about a fourth of the book left to finish and with the consumption of two cups of strawberry yogurt and a spoonful of peanut butter, I think I'm ready to go.

Wooohoo :D

2008-09-26T21:27:00.003+08:00

The poll on my sidebar is still in effect, so please vote -->

Cam showed me this awhile ago. I find it quite amusing.

Which side of your brain are you using as of this moment?

If you are seeing this lady spinning clockwise, then it means you are using the right side of the brain. If you are seeing her spinning counter-clockwise, then you are using the left side of the brain.

For clockwise people, try thinking of things that need logic, like solving mathematical equations, and she will turn counterclockwise.

For counterclockwise people, try thinking of things that need creativity, and she will turn clockwise.

I got the trick quite quickly, but I initially saw it spinning clockwise. I'm right brained. (not surprising eh?). The trick is to look at the legs. You can see it swing either left or right if you look at it long enough. The initial view of the picture, however, is more important. Comment here and tell me what you guys got :D

Grah, hellweek D:

2008-09-26T19:37:00.002+08:00

So just for trips I put up a new poll on my sidebar --->
Please do check it out, as I am running out of things to post :D

So I just finished my elocution piece. I find it quite amazing that I got passed missing two lines on my piece. I foresaw that happening, so I did what anybody sensible person would do - I didn't give my piece to be proctored by anybody.

Doing that, I'd be able to ad-lib if I ever forgot a line or take my time "dramatically pausing" to try to remember the next line.

Otherwise, I would have totally crashed. My piece is quite ad-libbed as it is, as I had to add a few lines to make the verses from the Bible sound more fluid. So having someone breathing over my neck for every minuscule mistake would definitely have razzled me.

At least it's over. Right now I have five things to worry about - the English take home LT, English board game, Health baby book, Fil Poems, and finishing Kitchen God's Wife. (I haven't started D: )

Wish me luck D: